In the very recent past, I have been struggling with fighting off negative entities and energies that had attached to me after I dropped to a low vibration, when I connected with a girl who passed, and had not crossed over, and who is my friendship soulmate that died a year ago before we were able to meet.
I was saged and started wearing crystals/stones such as black tourmaline, and received a great deal of amazing help from healers, psychics, and people who came into my life with these gifts and who I have been so lucky to have connected with and met.
I thought I was clear of all negative energies, until this point. My parents are divorcing, and so I move from house to house, and I am struggling to sleep both at my original home, and at my mom's new home, but especially at her's. Often I can't fall asleep until daylight, and even if I have a nightlight. At first I thought this fear of darkness had to do with a very different issue with my dad and my current state, but now I think it has to do with more. My nightmares are coming back, and fighting off negative thoughtforms/intrusive images that are not my own has become that much harder than after I got the help I needed. I'm getting scared again, mostly because I am seeing, or maybe more visualizing and feeling evil and scary things. The girl who I love deeply and from so many lives who I connected with, I struggle to connect with her at all anymore, although it was not easy after she crossed it feels even harder.
The previous dark energy and repetitive thoughts I had targeted her, and my relationship with her. Images of me doing horrible things to her, they would make me cry and want to die rather than feel or see them or try to fight anymore. Now they are images of her dead, and hanging and scary things like that, of her not being who she really is, when I know the truth. And now, on top of that, I am feeling a negative or evil version of myself. When I am near mirrors, I feel like she is watching me with these evil eyes and intentions, wanting to hurt who I love, and kill me. I am afraid that she is watching me and will take over who I am. I already have a deep fear of being a dark, or bad person, so this is just magnifying everything.
If you have any experience with any of these things, or any words of wisdom or advice, I would so appreciate it! Anything helps right now! Thank you!:)
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There is a time in our lives where our psyche's, after accumulating massive amounts of energies and psychological information, goes through what is called an unveiling. A form of subconscious unraveling, a spiritual awakening. Our souls have a shadow, and please do not think of it as an evil shadow, more of a shadow that contains all of your trauma's, your dark influences, your temptations, or even as the bible puts it, your sins. Interpret it how you like; these are not evils, but more like marks against your virtuous self. The part of you that defines the purest point of you. Sin is not evil in itself, the evil is those who act greedily from it, those who feed off of evil.
We all commit wrongful, unjust actions from time to time, but the ones who feed off the evil, and the one's who choose to acknowledge they did something bad are two very different energies. Accept what the shadow is about to bring you. Its your Dark Night, its here to reveal to you your dark-inners; your shadow, as one grows a tree of life, their roots must also become the tree of death. As Yin Grows, Yang must evolve as well, and vice-versa.
Remember the butterfly; wrapped in its own darkness, it died and emerged as if shimmering, it could suddenly fly, the edge of the world didn't seem that low anymore. That helps me.