Let me begin by saying, I have no real understanding to date of my experiences, and I am now about to turn 29 years old. That being said, any insight, comments or advice would be very much welcome.
From a very young age, I'd say about 3-4 years old, I've always been very "aware". That's the best way to describe it. I just knew things, felt things and saw things beyond what I believe a child should. For ex./ when I was asked, "What happened to the dinosaurs?" the expected answer was that they went extinct. Instead I said, "A lot of them died, but some are still in the water." Things like this were a regular occurrence. I even had opinions on things like Atlantis at 5! Opinions that went beyond what was commonly taught at the time. The teachers had to start skipping over me when playing the "guess what number I'm thinking game, and get to do something fun" because the other kids actually complained that I always got the number right first shot, and it wasn't fair. Fast forward, and around the time of 11-13 yo, I recall waking up one day and actually noticing that my 5 senses seemed dulled. Like someone had thrown a veil over them. And in retrospect, that is also around the time I started other things started happening.
The weekend my family friend died, I kept having nightmares or black cars crashing & breaking glass, it was always night time in the dream, and it was always the auditory screeching and crunching that woke me up. That Sunday, at 2:30 in the morning, some kids threw a cinder block through his windshield which caused not only his instantaneous death, but a crash. This was the first of many dreams to come true. I dreamt of a room in my school in detail, months before I moved. The colors, the shape & size, patterns, and how all the girls were sitting were on the mark.
By the time I turned 15-16 things escalated. I started feeling energy and reacting to places and people rather strongly, and sometimes violently. I'd refuse to go under certain bridges or not go in a room, get bad feelings from people or decide to follow my gut against all logic. At the same time certain people would put me at ease, or strike me as bright and warm. Others I'd feel connections to. At home however, I became frightened of my room and the hallway. I'd see shadow shapes, or hear whispered words. Things would turn off and on specifically around me. Usually when I was alone, but sometimes even my mother would witness it. And all of it ONLY happened to me. My dreams became lucid in nature, to the point where I was aware of the fact that I was asleep, and move through out like I was in another reality just checking things out.
However, it seems when my fear grew too great one night (17yo) I had another lucid dream where I recall every detail of walking up stone steps and into a great library. I spoke to an old man in another language and read a book in a completely different tongue. When I woke up that time, it was like a switch had been flipped off. There's more to this story, but that's one of its own. Anyhow, from that moment on, it felt like that hypersensitivity was gone. No more violent reactions, or things turning on and off on their own.
By age 20, what was left is that I still had strong intuition, dreams of future events, that strong sense of knowing, and a couple assorted little things. I no longer picked up numbers or symbols as well. But for some reason I still picked up images in a vague sense (colors, shapes, water, etc), and have very strong color and emotional ties to things.
In more recent years, now that I'm 28, I also pick up energy again, and don't really know why.
I do not meditate, I have NO training whatsoever psychically, and don't know at this point what all that stuff in the past was truly about. It seems to be starting up again though, slowly but surely. Do I continue as normal? What's going on to begin with? If you read this much, thanks. Any input would be very helpful.
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