Family Secrets

Ever since I was a little girl I had experiences that I just couldn't explain. I remember small stuff like feeling a pull when it came to meeting strangers, whether they were good or bad. Later in life I realized I was feeling their spirits, it helped to identify evil from good. It was a secret I kept for a long time, I saw faces in my mind, and when I closed my eyes I saw people, lots of people, I couldn't figure it out, this pull I get is almost a fear, sometimes not very strong, but sometimes almost unbearable, and it wakes me in a terrible state, shaking and crying, I don't know how to explain it, but I do know something is telling me something. I realized this years ago, but until recently I didn't realize how important it was to pay attention until a child died, and I could have prevented it. I have over the years told my inside family, my children and husband these things, and over time they listened, because when I would get a feeling, I would tell them, and sure enough something would happen, I predicted the Northridge earthquake and saved a friend, I can also tell the sex of a child before ultra sounds, by feeling, I have never been wrong, but recently, I had this over whelming fear, couldn't shake it, called my parents to see if they were okay, I can tell if it's family or not, and new it was close to the heart, within 12 hours my sons best friends four month old died, it was something that could have been avoided, I should have known, the day before I felt I should have said something and didn't, the very next day the baby died in my sons arms, I can touch a person and tell them things about themselves, and don't really know what to do about this gift I have, I wish I could utilize it in some way. I know God has blessed me with this, and want to put it to use, but at this time I have no idea what to do... Please help.