Abuse, Guardian Angel, And Telepathy

I'm 14 turning 15 in a few months. I believe I am telepathic. But there are times that come that I feel that I'm going crazy because I started talking to my guardian angel last year using telepathy. Her name is Barbara. She helped me get through a lot of tough situations. But now I'm in a really bad situation. I am bisexual and my family found out. They started to hate me. I started being abused physically and mentally. They say that I'm going to hell and that God hates me. They even took me out of school. I'm going to be homeschooled next year! THIS IS UNFAIR! I told my counselor and she contacted CPS but they didn't put me in foster care, sadly. They only gave them a warning. My mom made me lie to them by saying I lied about I'm being abused and that I'm selfish and so on. This made me look dirty. She made me lie so they wouldn't get in trouble. I am not allowed to sit at the dinner table with them. They took everything from me. They don't let me touch any one of them because they say I have a dirty soul. Every morning I have to kiss my moms feet. This makes me cry every night. It's summer now so there is no school, so I stay in my room for most of the day. They say they hate me so much that they want me to be run over my a truck and that it will leave no remains of me. My mom also said she will ruin my future that I will be homeless. She makes me read anti-gay stories aloud. I get no dessert. I'm not allowed to exit the house. She isn't allowing me to go to marchingband practice. She said she is cursing me in her prayers. My step dad treats me as a dog. They don't even call me by my first name, they said "you" or they just look at me and give me the command. My step dad hugs my sibilings a lot and they laugh to show me how I am excluded. They more angry because they have to go to court. They say I'm not their son. Just want to say, I haven't seen my real father in 9 years. So I don't know how it feels to have you biological father and mother happy and live a happy life. My step father always abused me. I feel...alone... They compare me to shiat and a hyena. They say shiat and a hyena are worth better than me. (BTW when I was being phisically abused, I had lots of cuts and bruises. I had a cut on my neck. But thank God it didn't hit my main vein. But it bleeded a lot. My parents made me tell CPS that I fell off a tree.)

I'm not allowed to use the internet but I'm typing this up without them knowing. I can't contact my friends. So it's been about 3 weeks in this miserable situation. My guardian angel told me that this is enough. That she will take me away from them and give me a better life. She told me I'm not going to hell because God judges us by our actions not thoughts. There is a part of me that thinks I'm going crazy and that I'm not even telepathic. Then she gets mad at me and tells me that it hurts when you are with someone all their life and they doubt your existence. So she gave me a plan to get out of the house. (The plan sounds weird but bear with me) the plan is that I should astral project then she will take me out of this world in my astral projection and to a different one. She said she is taking me to Niflheim. She said over there, there is an old man with a beard I should talk to. He runs a Pub (whatever that is). That I should tell him that my guardian angel referred me to him. This man will give me something that will give me the ability to cast black magic and white magic. She said it won't be strong but I can make it stronger by practicing. Then after wards, after the astral

projection ends, I will be able to see her. So can other people. But she will look human. Then she said we can runaway from them. She also said that God allows this but if I use the magic for selfish or against innocent people, I will be severely punished. I am having problems astral projecting so she said to lucid dream first then convert the lucid dream to astral projection. She sometimes tells me the future and she turns out right. I get surprised. But she can't get detailed on the future. So I both believe this plan and doubt this plan. I don't know what to believe. Am I insane or does she really exist? If she exists, should I believe the magic thing? Plus my guardian angel said that every spell I cast, it will come with a price. So I shouldn't abuse it.