A Confused Psychic Medium Trying To Find Her Path

By whitebutterfly_25
(1 stories) (2 posts) (the author is a young adult)
Date: 2015-02-17
Country: United States
State: California
Category: Psychic Medium

I don't know where to start but here I go. I've always known I was different things I experienced as a child not everyone can say happened to them at 17 I was approached by a fellow psychic medium telling me I had this gift and if I wanted, it was something I could develop very strongly. Which I did, to make a long story short we worked together I accompanied him to readings, I've read people, to knowing things about them no one ever knew, personal hard ships they were currently going through, helping them cope with lost ones and giving beautiful messages from loved ones who have crossed. Doing spiritual/psychic work felt so natural to me, I loved it I loved helping and healing people knowing I'm using this gift God gave me. Going more into my spiritual work I began to grow a strong connection to Crystals to later find out I was also a healer I have yet practiced/worked on healing people with my hands but I'm great at emotionally healing people due to I'm also a strong empath. My problem was always doubting myself if I was doing the right thing. Is this really my path? Is the feelings/information I'm getting right? Which caused me to close up and not speak on my feelings in a reading doubting myself being afraid to go up to random people in public that I was being "pulled" to, to give a message from a person who has crossed because I was afraid of being wrong. I decided to put my spiritual work on hold and thought if this is really my path it'll find it's way back to me. I am now 18 and I really missed helping people I felt like something was missing I felt like I wasn't living up to what I was put here to do. I started slowly going back into my spiritual work doing readings at this time my gifts were stronger than what they had been. I'm now ready to accept my gifts and accept my life purpose and continue to grow, develop my gifts more, and help more people. But the reason why I came here was because I've had these weird experiences happening lately. I've always had really strong vivid dreams feeling so real to even some of my dreams coming true even some as signs or a warning to help me. But now maybe about 4-5 times I've experienced while sleeping a loud noise in my hears/head so loud almost sounding as a train whistle sometimes feeling like my ear drums are going to pop I try to wake up but I can't right away I struggle to wake myself up the whole time this loud sound ringing constantly then finally I jerk up. I did some research and found out its called "exploding head syndrome " and is linked to some of us psychics during our spiritual awakening. But I wake up afraid and don't know what to take from all this. Has anyone else experienced something like this? Could I still be going through a spiritual awakening? Should I be afraid. Please leave some comments if you have any advice

Ps:sorry for this being so long thought I'd give everyone a little back story

Peace,light,and love

-whitebutterfly

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Lyro (468 posts)

9 years ago (2015-03-03)

Emotional blocking, and self doubt can be a serious issue. I myself had different things happen to me, and due to doubt have really fallen from how I used to be. Take this site for example, I used to be more connected with myself, and help so many people, but due to doubt, I don't come on nearly as much as I used to. It's a sad thing I know, but most of the time the blocks that we experience are the ones that we put up ourselves. We all have our own mountains to climb when it comes to self realization, knowing who we are and what kind of person we want to be. Just keep in mind that the things that we can do don't change who we are, just think of the person you want to be, that's all that really matters in life, and never what other people think. The only other thing I can say is that I wish you luck
~ Lyro

Thulsa (1 stories) (34 posts)

9 years ago (2015-02-22)

Hi whitebutterfly 25,
I also experience something similar to what you describe. I am in my later fourties and it started when I was 14 and would come and go. For me it would increase and get louder and louder just before I was contacted or could sense somethings presence. Sometimes it is a spirit literally screaming for your attention. Many of them try to communicate on a different and higher frequency and get frustrated when you ignore them or can't hear them. In some cases which usually happens to me is when I am being alerted or warned of something about to happen. Sometimes just before I go to sleep the ringing in my head is almost deafening. When this happens I often get visions of people or events that are or will take place in the future just before I drift off to sleep. I believe that the point just between asleep and awake in that realm is where all of our conscious filters are dropped and images and contacts are easily made to manifest. Many times spirits will try to gain entry or influence at that moment. You must be careful and protect yourself from unwanted energies at this time. While you are awake though you will need to learn to tune or dim down the energy. You need to train yourself to control your focus on everyday life and positive light energy in our worlds frequency and vibration. We are beings of Love and Light and it compounds when given to those around you. Peoples energies that are too far one way or the other attract attention sometimes positive and sometimes negative. Before I read your post the ringing in my ears was pretty loud and when I clicked on your post it got louder. I then got images start coming to me. I am supposed to tell you from a woman in your past that is gone now that you need to remember the lords prayer and when it gets to be too much to recite it in your mind. She also said something about clouds when you were little. It is foggy I can't quite get details, but something about a memory or experience when you were little that was very special to you. She said it would help calm your spirit. I got a picture of clouds flash in front of me. I don't know what she is to you but said it would help calm you when you needed it.

vergil117 (guest)

9 years ago (2015-02-17)

Sure thing! I'd love to help you out, just like i've helped many other psychic teens and mediums my age:) I'd love to see if I could help you with finding your path, just like I found my own.

You can email me at biohazardzombie17 [at] yahoo.com

whitebutterfly_25 (1 stories) (2 posts)

9 years ago (2015-02-17)

Hi vergil117, I hope you see this, I wrote a long comment to you but the site won't let me post it. I have not experienced the buzzing although my experience feels somewhat like an OBE but I'm not sure if that's what it is. Maybe we can have further communication, since I'm having trouble accepting my path

vergil117 (guest)

9 years ago (2015-02-17)

Hey there! I'm also 18 and an empath as well. You see? My path is more so trying to help as many of us psychic teens as I can. Getting everyone comfortable with their gifts and knowing that there's more kids my age who are like me really makes me feel better about all this myself. I've pretty much accepted my empathy but It does get bad sometimes.: (I really want to help people but sometimes I can't help myself...

You know? I've actually had a similar experience while sleeping except it was a really loud and annoying buzzing in my ear. I was really scared of it and eventually it stopped but I remember it was almost like an out of body experience with how it was. Its also really similar to how you couldn't wake yourself up at first, because I couldn't either. Have you experienced anything like that before?

whitebutterfly_25 (1 stories) (2 posts)

9 years ago (2015-02-17)

[at] Boson thank you for your comment, I never thought it could be a warning thank you for opening up that possibility. I have a hard time self reading/meditating but it's something I can look into try

Boson (179 posts)

9 years ago (2015-02-17)

Hi whitebutterfly,

I think that loud ringing noise you hear is something else. I haven't had it myself but I think it's some kind of warning for you. I have one psychic friend and he hears a similar noise as a warning of some global event to come. Maybe you could ask as a self-reading what the ringing is about? When I do readings for myself I do it either in meditation or in my sleep.

And I don't think you have to worry if you are on the right path. If it feels right in your heart, then you are most likely on your right spiritual path.

I hope this helps a little.

Boson

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