It's Been With Me For 13 Yrs, I Can't Handle The Fear Anymore

By keepthevibealive
(1 stories) (1 posts) (the author is a young adult)
Date: 2015-03-17
Country: United States
State: Colorado
Category: Visions / Trances / Altered States

This is my last attempt at finding an answer, my last call for help.

When I was 10 years old I was convinced there was a presence. Coming from a hardcore christian family, "ghosts don't exist." one night, something came. It hit me hard in the face leaving a mark. I was told I had a nightmare and hurt myself in my dreams. But I knew. And from that day on, I could feel it. Anytime I close my eyes when i'm alone, and any time i'm in the dark alone. Sometimes I open my eyes in the shower when I can feel it close and the curtains are coming at me as if something is on the other side. When it comes when i'm sleeping, I see it in my dreams and I become paralyzed, and I know it's right there in the room with my body. I force my body to make a noise so someone will wake me up. The fear it brings to me is unreal, and at 23 I'm becoming frightened to my very core. Recently, out of anger in a dream I told the figure I was going to let it get me, I would refuse to give in to fear and let whatever was going to happen, happen. And since then it appears much more. It has no real figure, its just a dark haze with a faint human-like outline. I've tried therapists, they tell me its "myself" i'm running from, but I can tell you its not. I know how to face my personal demons, and this is not one of them. I had my head scanned at 18 and a huge mental evaluation just to, you know, make sure it's not a tumor or schizophrenia.

I finally broke down and told my boyfriend of over 3 years this secret and he of course cannot understand and just suggested another brain scan.

I'm not crazy, I am scared and SOMETHING is with me.

I can't get myself to actually let it get me, I always run scared to where there's people around or light.

I'm tired of these constant nightmares, and i'm tired of the unknown.

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Papagena (3 posts)

9 years ago (2015-03-29)

Get in touch with your spirit guides. They can HELP protect you (notice the emphasis on help). Also try banishing it with magic. Also next time you experience sleep paralysis then you should try to say the word "OUT," without moving. This can help your spirit body to come out of your physical body. This way you guys can be face to face and you can beat the carp out of it. Trust me it works.

keepthevibealive (1 stories) (1 posts)

9 years ago (2015-03-23)

I appreciate everyone's response, it's good to finally get that off my chest. After sending this posting in, and sitting down and having an actual long talk about what it could be with my boyfriend, the fear that I have for it is substantially reduced, I suppose just opening my mouth and telling someone would've been a good idea a long time ago:) I don't believe in a God, I do believe there's some sort of life after death which will be assigned according to how terrible of a perseon you were. I'm more of a don't be a dick and do what you love and good things will happen in the end kind of person.
I also believe what Boson said, the invisible world around us containing beings of both non-goodness and goodness. I also believe in dreams, maybe a little too much:) I was a lucid dreamer as a kid, every night, everything was in my control. Vivid and insane. I told a friend about a dream I had where I "traveled" and was with "other kids dreaming." I thought it really was, just a dream. He told me to look into astral projecting, and indeed, I was doing just that. While talking with my boyfriend about this (he knows about the lucid dreaming/astral projecting) "thing" that has been following me, he brought up the possibility that I brought something back with me as a kid.
Anyways, there's all my beliefs and thoughts in one post. I do not necessarily believe any of this is 100% fact, because I do feel like that's ridiculous and it cannot possibly actually happen, but i'm also open-minded and ready for an actual answer.

TheMoonlitMidnightNightmareKid (14 posts)

9 years ago (2015-03-20)

Hello!
I know how you feel!
If had that feeling for 1 year, But you just have to get thro it!
Once I went to my school, (it was the middle of the year) and I felt like I have never been there before, but I have,
AHH!
I just heard SOMETHING a move around downstairs!
Wtf was that, anyways I'm going to ignore that, I've lived in fear for a year, I've seen demons and the evil is starting to overcome me, don't give up, I'm 12, and I'm trying to bear the fear,
(I am RebelTweenOsiria, my account got hacked)
Someone told me that I am a very strong and sensitive psychic, I have had this since I was little, but you have to fight the fear, and those dark hazes have been following me for 2 years, your not alone, if you believe, love, kindness, happiness, can push the haze away, maybe, but you should try talking to the haze. 😊

Light777 (6 posts)

9 years ago (2015-03-20)

Hi iam someone that is strong in the spirit. I understand your situation and I can help you. My name is Louis if you want to contact me in this discussion, or here is my email Louis787 [at] hotmail.com I can help you and for sure get Rid of it.

DreamOfMe (5 posts)

9 years ago (2015-03-19)

i can help you! Would you like to talk more about it? I have been in your sistuation and telling these stuff to your close one won't help. They will treat you as a mental problem person or person who is suffering from too much stress.

Help me help you ~ I want to help as much as I can.
My help option Is I can guide you through online. Another one is you meet me in person. (which require travel) I won't charge you a single cents.

Add me skype: najaruki
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If you want to give it a go and try out this help.

Boson (179 posts)

9 years ago (2015-03-19)

Hi keepthevibealive,

First off, you are certainly not crazy. There exists an invisible world around us with beings of both goodness and non-goodness. I have seen many examples of both myself. I think a proper cleansing of your living space and in particular yourself would help you get rid of this negativity. You may not be able to do that yourself because of the fear you described. I cannot think of a single occasion then the Divine Light has failed to banish negative entities - because after all there is no stronger force in the universe.

Boson

PS. If you want me to help, you can contact me on my website (freehealing.org)

kC000 (2 posts)

9 years ago (2015-03-19)

I can tell you a few things which helped me massively. At least this guy doesn't harm you. The one who was after me (Probably a female spirit) had scratched my arms several times and injured my private part severaaal times but that was also due to the fact that I was very persistently stubborn with what I did to see her limits... (I know it's funny but painfully true). The following things helped me:-
1) Meditating on AUM (google it) 2) Turning to partial vegetarian partial vegan diet. Completely cutting off eggs, meat and dairy. 3) Exercising and yoga, breathing exercises... And finally, have blind faith in your god and remember that he is more powerful than any entity who wants to harm you and no body can even touch if you if you are pure enough and don't want them to. All the best

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