Starting at the age of 5 or 6, I have been experiencing cases of voices in my head. They come and go as they please, usually sticking around for sometimes only an hour, sometimes longer, and they always felt like they were settled in the background, like people who were in another room just talking and you could still hear them. Sometimes they were loud, sometimes too loud, and other times they were quiet, sometimes too quiet. But I could hear them still. They never really bothered me, and if I spoke to them, they would reply to me. They involved me in their conversations when I involved myself in them.
As I grew older, I often forgot about these experiences until they happened again, and then I would forget again until the next visit of the voices. When I was about 18, there was a three month stretch where I was constantly hearing these voices. And then they were gone. They didn't reappear to me until I was around 21. They came and went as they pleased still, and I involved myself more with them. Off and on through my life, especially through my teen years, I worried if I was crazy. Normal, right? Absolutely. I was a teen, something was always going wrong in my life, something always was going the way I didn't want it to go. Very normal. The voices sometimes kept me company, even if I had no control over when they came or if they came at all or how long they stuck around. It wasn't until I worried less about if I was crazy that the voices began to visit me more frequently. And then I started to notice cycles of deja vu when the voices came around.
I started to realize that some of these voices were my own. That most of these conversations in the past were with myself in the future. I was slipping back and forth though time in my brain to converse with myself and a lot of the time it was because I was in such a deep state of relaxation internally that I could basically astral project myself with little to no effort through time to either visually witness or just hear what was going on.
I saw and heard and reexperienced the past. I saw and heard and experienced what might be the future. I was going back and forth through time with myself as my central focus. I was not only the time traveler but the time traveler's wife.
It wasn't until I was nearing my 23rd birthday that I started to take psychedelics which made it significantly easier for me to have these conversations in travels through time, in addition to the NORMAL voices that were in my head, not just myself pulling a Doctor Who on myself. Although I have since stopped taking the psychedelics, my experiences that I gained through their use has aided me in being able to successfully and easily hold conversations with the voices, past, future, and present, as well as feel at ease with myself in addition to my psychic development as a whole. I don't always do these astral projections when I want to, but I'm still doing pretty good and I'm happy with my progress in my life, especially over such a short period of time.
Please tell me your thoughts on my story and my experience.
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