Losing Abillities

I think there is something wrong with me and I don't know what's going on. I feel like I'm losing myself. Little bits and pieces everyday. I don't really know how to explain that though I don't even know where to begin. I can't control my abilities anymore at all, it's like they're going haywire. I cannot use the telekinesis or telepathy any more, but I feel like it's building. I feel like everything's building, getting stronger with every second. And sooner or later it's going to explode. If I'm not just crazy then my abilities (Telekinesis and telepathy) are growing into a massive amount of power. That's what my dreams are saying to, every night is the same thing in different variations. I don't remember the dreams themselves, just flashes and I have this feeling that they're right.

My ability to feel energies is the one going haywire. Everything is out of wack, I'm constantly feeling danger everywhere. Sometimes its a little and sometimes it's a lot. My emotions are off too. I feel like I'm getting angrier. My daydreams or visions or whatever you'd call them, they can be both, are getting stronger and more real. And I feel like I have this voice inside my head telling me that I have to learn how to use my powers, I have to control them, and something big is going to happen something dangerous. It doesn't feel like a spirit guide, it's darker, and it's like she's a part of me, or in me maybe. Aside from that voice there is another telling me to let go, everything will be ok if I just let go. It tells me that If I don't make the right choices now I'm going to head down a very hard very dark path, one that will hurt me and everyone around me. This voice doesn't feel like it's a part of me, and it feels lighter. I don't know what I'm supposed to let go of or what is about to happen. There's a lot that's going on inside that I just don't understand. I don't know what's happening to me, and I don't know how figure this out. I'd try meditating and talking to a 'spirit guide' but I don't know if I'm even meditating right. I have no clue what to do. Or maybe I'm just crazy and none of this stuff is actually happening.