My parents both were closed minded and very rarely opened their minds. So I started to become like them. Around 12 years old I started to get depressed and confused.
A long story short I stumbled upon a YouTube channel that taught me psychic abilities. After a while I decided to stop using them, but I realized that I should have never stopped because a couple months ago I paid to see a psychic and she told me that my life purpose is to seek certain people out. Which is the reason why I feel blissful when looking back at memories.
So I decided to mediate, connect to my higher self and ask why I am on this planet? While my mind was clear random memories popped into my head. Their were of people and blissful memories. On a second thought, I had been told it's pointless to meet people for no reason. This is also a very good reason to believe it is not why I am here. I would befriend anyone but feel like its Important to talk to people who I feel drawn too. I currently have no friends but people call me charismatic, conversation or encounters is what I limit it too.
This sort of doesn't feel like this is my purpose, and I really want to figure it out. At random times memories don't seem to leave me alone (it's my choice to control my mind). After not talking or even thinking about memories that replayed over and over while mediating, It's impossible that my subconscious mind is programmed to think about these people. Hmmm maybe it's right to forgot and move on? In the past I rarely thought about a former teacher, but I think it's better to control my mind and forget about the past? Please tell me your guys opinion?