Dad

After I lost mum, I thought it was going to be very hard looking after my dad as we had never had a good relationship whilst I was growing up. I soon realized that not only did I end up getting on well with dad, but I saw a wonderful human being that loved me so much, we became very close in those couple of magical years that we had left together. I had always seen things as a youngster but shut it out for so long, but once mum had passed, it came back incredibly strong. I thought I would go mad. I was always getting warnings about dad, one day I was shown his favorite tree being carried off up to the sky, many times I saw the number 8, I knew we didn't have long together, every time he got a little sick, I would get distraught thinking this was it, but he always pulled through.

Until he reached 80, a few months before he got sick, I noticed that every time I went to dads, his favorite tree was dying, first on one side, then the other, until xmas when he got really ill. I just knew for sure this time. The day we took him in hospital, there was only one leaf left on his tree, the birds no longer came in his garden, the doctors told me he would be home in 2 days, he wasn't, bless him. My point is I was very angry that for 2 years, I was constantly worried he would go soon, I couldn't understand why they showed me these things, until now and I understand that I was given the chance to say goodbye, make him laugh, have an amazing birthday party for him, but most of all I was given a real chance to get to know my dad.

I am so grateful to spirit for that now, as if I hadn't been shown these things, maybe I wouldn't have gone that extra mile. I still miss them both terribly but know, deep down, they are always here. On the day of his funeral, I took a picture of his bare bird table, my sister decided to put out his last bit of bird seed, amazingly when I had the picture developed there was this wonderful heart shape light, right behind my sister. Now, when I get sad, I only need to look at that picture to know that they are here with me always.