I am really new to the site but I've observed some pretty knowledgeable and empathetic people around. I was hoping someone out there may have already experienced some of the things I've been dealing with. I don't really have anyone knowledgeable about these sorts of issues in my life.
I guess I should start from the beginning. Since I was a child, I have been able to intimately feel a connection with everyone around me. This is really hard to describe in text but I'll do my best to be articulate. From a ridiculously young age, I have not just felt the surface emotions of people, but really deep issues, and the connecting issues surrounding them. I had a tendency to ask people really personal questions that were directly related to something pertinent in their life within minutes of meeting them.
Thoughts and words started coming through clearer around middle school (Age 12). To the point where I now began to realize that this wasn't how everyone experienced life. Many times a day I will know exactly what someone is going to say, sometimes across the room from me completely. My best friend didn't believe in anything psychic related before he met me:) There were just too many times that I knew things before they happened for it to be a coincidence.
Upon further consideration, Age 12 was a really important year. I saw a spirit for the first time that year. It was at a friend's house I was visiting in Michigan. Before I ever saw it, I felt! There was such negative feeling in the house. And it felt like people were actually drained of their energy.
It was a very dark energy mass, with partial form hovering up near the ceiling. I was really scared at first but it was my best friend so I told him everything. He actually believed me and was relieved because he couldn't describe why he and his family had been so depressed lately. We prayed and I told the spirit to leave, which it did. I could actually feel it leave.
My dreams and "waking dreams" as I call them started about that time too! I dream about things that will mostly happen to myself, but not very often. More on dreams towards the end. My waking visions have dramatically increased with age. It's very hard to describe, but in my mind's eye I will see "video clips" of things happening, lots and lots of things. Sometimes they are seemingly mundane, other times very important. When I was 15 I "saw" my step dad have a heart attack 2 weeks before it happened.
I am 24 now. When I speak to people, I try to do it with love and help them through the problems that I see. I assume that if there is a purpose for this gift, that must be it. I'm never wrong about the feelings I get about a person's character and whether or not they're lying to me so it's nice for counseling purposes. I am really grateful for my ability to perceive other people's perspectives.
My real struggles are principally with protecting myself, and finding a way of directing/harnessing my experiences. This is where I could really use some help!
I am absolutely elated to be around some individuals. Their energy is like a high and we feed off of each others' positivism. However, there are negative people out there, like really negative people, and I have an EXTREMELY difficult time shutting out anyone/everyone around me. It's like this flood gate of connectedness, which can be wonderful or sickening depending.
There are times where I just have to escape away to my room and focus on my breathing, it's like being caught up in a whirlpool.
If that is part of the celestial deal for getting to experience what I do, then I guess I can live with it. I am really new to the site but I've observed some pretty knowledgeable and empathetic people around. I was hoping someone out there may have already experienced some of the things I've been dealing with. I don't really have anyone knowledgeable about these sorts of issues in my life.
I guess I should start from the beginning. Since I was a child, I have been able to intimately feel a connection with everyone around me. This is really hard to describe in text but I'll do my best to be articulate. From a ridiculously young age I have not just felt the surface emotions of people, but really deep issues, and the connecting issues surrounding them. I had a tendency to ask people really personal questions that were directly related to something pertinent in their life within minutes of meeting them.
Thoughts and words started coming through clearer around middle school (Age 12). To the point where I now began to realize that this wasn't how everyone experienced life. Many many times a day I will know exactly what someone is going to say, sometimes across the room from me completely. My best friend didn't believe in anything psychic related before he met me:) There were just too many times that I knew things before they happened for it to be a coincidence.
Upon further consideration, Age 12 was a really important year. I saw a spirit for the first time that year. It was at a friends house I was visiting in Michigan. Before I ever saw it, I felt! There was such negative feeling in the house. And it felt like people were actually drained of their energy.
It was a very dark energy mass, with partial form hovering up near the ceiling. I was really scared at first but it was my best friend so I told him everything. He actually believed me and was relieved because he couldn't describe why he and his family had been so depressed lately. We prayed and I told the spirit to leave, which it did. I could actually feel it leave.
My dreams and "waking dreams" as I call them started about that time too! I dream about things that will mostly happen to myself, but not very often. More on dreams towards the end. My waking visions have dramatically increased with age. It's very hard to describe, but in my mind's eye I will see "video clips" of things happening, lots and lots of things. Sometimes they are seemingly mundane, other times very important... When I was 15 I "saw" my step dad have a heart attack 2 weeks before it happened.
I am 24 now. When I speak to people, I try to do it with love and help them through the problems that I see. I assume that if there is a purpose for this gift, that must be it. I'm never wrong about the feelings I get about a person's character and whether or not they're lying to me so its nice for counseling purposes: I am really grateful for my ability to perceive other people's perspectives.
My real struggles are principally with protecting myself, and finding a way of directing/harnessing my experiences. This is where I could really use some help!
I am absolutely elated to be around some individuals. Their energy is like a high and we feed off of each others' positivism. However. There are negative people out there, like really negative people, and I have an EXTREMELY difficult time shutting out anyone/everyone around me. It's like this flood gate of connectedness, which can be wonderful or sickening depending.
There are times where I just have to escape away to my room and focus on my breathing, its like being caught up in a whirlpool.
If that is part of the celestial deal for getting to experience what I do, then I guess I can live with it.
I essentially have no family left but a mother who I am sadly disconnected from. She is a very conservative Christian, who coincidentally is a Prophetic dreamer... She has dreams for people in her life on a weekly basis. These dreams are always accurate and have actually helped a lot of people. She only puts her gifts in a religious context... She won't talk about them with anyone but the person they're for and keeps a dream journal which I bet would be a blast to read.
Alright, now here's the part that has me legitimately concerned for my well-being. I go through periods of dreaming. I.e. Sometimes I won't have a dream, or meaningful dream for months. BUT, then there are times where I can not stop dreaming! To the point where I hardly get any sleep and wake up not feeling refreshed at all! On top of that, the dreams that I know are of some significance are always incredibly real. I feel things physically in those dreams, which can be really cool, but also really scary.
I am still reeling from an experience I had last night that kept me up. I was having an intense dream, one with a girl that I'm not sure that I've ever met. She was confessing something to me (about something unrelated to me), and she was so upset and crying ridiculously profusely. It was raining a little bit and we had this really meaningful embrace and I was holding her and just letting her cry and she just kept sobbing. But I could feel the moisture, and the girl and I "was there".
That's when things got out of control. All of the sudden it was as though I was pulled from my dream into another place. I was very aware of the fact that I was conscience, however I didn't remember anything about the general time frame I was in or where I was, I just knew I was in a prone position.
I heard what sounded like talking or sounds but it was very muffled, this was within seconds of "teleporting" to my new location. I was still confused, after all I had been stolen from my dream.
Out of nowhere I heard a voice in my head, a very knowing voice. It said very plainly "Now is the time to pray". And I at that point I knew I was supposed to listen to that voice. Within a split second I was calling out "God", and even quicker than that my entire perspective zoomed really fast upwards to this incredibly bright white light, and there was a circle with a very intricate symbol that I do not really remember. As soon as that happened I was hovering and laying within my sleeping body. I was weightless and felt separate from my physical body. And I could see and feel this blob like creature attaching itself to me.
I was so scared! I was trying to scream for god or Jesus but nothing would come out. I was silenced and paralyzed but eventually was able to "burst through".
I have only had a handful or so dreams where I felt like I was actually being attacked. I don't see spirits too often (that I know of) and when I do I don't see them too well. I made eye contact with an evil spirit in a dream once about a year ago... Last night is about the only thing that's come close to that in scariness...
So how many of my friends know all of this stuff about me? My really good old friends know, but I've lost track of most of them, I basically have no one to talk to about any of this. I feel so completely different than everyone else and sometimes its just a little too much.
If anyone has any ideas on how I could focus/hone these abilities or on how I can better protect myself, I would really appreciate it!
Thank you for taking the time to read this, I know I can be a bit wordy:)
Rob
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