So I'm just lost and confused about this. I am 19, I don't know if it matters but I have always been the weird one of the family. My parents were full of knowledge I guess I can call it of the paranormal, and everything that comes with it. My father was the black sheep. All his brothers and sisters practiced, and followed "something". Well I think it was inherited to my siblings, and me but they chose to ignore it, and since a baby I always heard, dreamed, saw things. I think it amplified it, more.
Well first, I was told that before I was born, I was cursed through the womb. Anyways, when I was a little girl, I would wake up every night with this recurring dream of my mom being sacrificed, like the movie the mummy how eve is on a table back in ancient times, well exactly like that, but with a dagger and I would wake up screaming, crying. My mom would say it was just a dream but I knew it wasn't until it occurred. I have always dreamed, rare things. It was months then years before they would happen, it was annoying because I was like why do I dream stuff years before they happen e.g. 3-5 years, and I'm not going to know when it will happen until I am at that exact place, and have Deja vu. So I was angry at my gift, so I stopped trying to understand it.
It would then be times, places, spirits, and things that I shouldn't dream. Like the end of time, that was one of the worst. But I stopped trying to figure them out, after a while, but it was always there. Another thing, is I always saw, heard, sense, them. They would bug me a lot. Talk to me, call me, and wake me from my dreams. It was bad, it would scare me, I think that's the one that I least like, and I don't like it. I would see a priest, a white ghost very young pretty, she would call me, one time, She said come here and I thought it was my sister. I told her wait let me connect my phone to the charger, and I'll go. I would always see this black shadows run around my hallway, be around me, scare me, call me. I use to wake up with bruises (hands, finger prints), scrapes, and Just mess with me.
One time, I was sleeping I woke up because I felt someone staring at me as I slept and it was a shadow with red eyes, staring over me, with anger, so evil. This happened twice around 3-4 am. "This is in my old apartment, built in front of an old mansion with a private burial ground". I quickly closed my eyes, prayed and fell asleep. Another was, me staring at my own body, and I could hear two little girls, asking me questions in another language and I would answer in that same language, and I got frightened and went back to my body. And awoke. I don't fully understand how they can get information, out of me in dreams or sleep. Can't I hold it back?
I was doing my homework "2004/2005", and I was really either concentrated or I don't know, but this mans' face projects in green, right in front of me, he's very sad, elderly, like trying to say something but wouldn't. I don't know what that was, can someone explain it. I'm still curious to know what, and why did I see it. It was the first and only time. I don't know of anyone dying, or sick at the moment. So it's odd.
I have always had people tell me there whole life story as if they knew me, I can know what your going to tell me, say, think, or want to tell me. I think its telepathy not sure, It happens the most with my sister, I'll hear her call me, and I'll say what. And she will either tell me or change her mind. I can sense when someone's watching me and look directly at their direction, catch them staring at me. I like doing that, I see them shocked when I look directly in their eyes, sometimes they're angry, embarrassed. I can feel either good vibes or bad from people, places, or things.
Also, I am not sure who or what it is, but it's been with me as far as I can remember it leaves me, sometimes months, or days, but it left me this time for years. But it came back and I know it's reading everything I'm writing anyways. Well what is it. I can feel it when it gets mad, and it's hurting my hand now. I have a deep cut, from my cat that went crazy on me three days ago. Well, why does it follow me, why is it with me?
So, I finally accepted these things, now, I had before but when I would look to my mother for an answer why, she would have a skeptic answer. I knew she did it to protect me, from what I'm not sure. But when she sees' that it gets serious she does these things to make them go away, but hides them from me. I confronted her two days ago, because I came to a conclusion that I was either insane, or I inherited it. And maybe the spirit stuck to me from what they use to do. Ugh I don't like when they touch me. Get's me mad.
Additionally, she said most likely I'm gifted. But my mood changes with different people, and one thing she said is to not get into the bad stuff. My dad did some pretty evil stuff. And I know she is trying to keep me from going there. I am not trying to be like that, I want to understand my gifts except the hearing them and seeing. Also, I did a cleaning from the curse I inherited. It was from a curandera who cursed my mother. I guess a shaman I think not sure. I apologize, I remember now its' that what is with me. Well ever since that good energy I get shocked all the time with my car, static. I see sparks, I shocked my cat today, and it was an accident. I do not know how or what state of mind I am. Emotion I am lost but it happens. Well my cat got mad, but I shock myself, people. Everything. I would get mad at first but now I am curious what is that? I have other things but at the moment this is all.
Oh one more thing, when I close my eyes, I see them, and it was clearer before but I prayed for it to go away. When one time I was going to sleep and this mans' face started to form. A bench then a girl, and it was getting closer, until she was in my face, and scared me. So I hate that... I did the remote viewing test, scored good... Well please I am open to hear your comments. If you can please help me. Thank you in advance.
P.s. I am not sure but lately I say things without knowing I say them, write stuff without knowing I am doing this, then I become shocked. Is someone doing this, or is it me.
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