Beginner Empath

Since I was little Auras have just been pretty colours following people, but only if I really looked at them. It wasn't until a few years ago when my mom started reading Sylvia Brown books where I learned about Auras. For the past two or three years, I have been more sensitive to people. I can randomly feel people's emotions, even if they aren't close to me.

For example, one day I was my usual happy and calm self, sketching a few things for Art class, and suddenly I was crying out of nowhere. I felt frustrated, and a little angry, but mainly depressed. I didn't understand. So I grabbed the car keys and headed off to the batting cages, hoping to blow off some steam. After twenty minutes of hitting, I didn't feel better - which never happens. So I drove out into the country, taking the long way home when I just suddenly felt like going to my friend Jessica's house. It just felt like the right thing to do, yet I never go there (her mom doesn't like having people over) As soon as I got there her mom said "oh thank goodness your here!" and runs and gets jess. I have never seen jess cry ever, but she walked out embarrassed, crying hysterically because the teacher at the collage told the class that "Fat people didn't deserve to be nurses, and that she had to loose weight..." and kept going on about her weight. Jess maybe big, but she is very smart. Anyways, she hugged me (rare again) and cried for another half an hour. As soon as she was done, I felt better.

Another time I was in my bedroom doing homework when I felt angry and the thought of being upset at my father kept running through my head. Not knowing what I was doing I picked up my phone and called the girl across the street who was a friend of mine and asked her was she angry at her dad. She said "oh my god yes! I can't stand him right now" and went into a frenzy about her father. Again as soon as I started to talk to her, I felt fine.

This has happened a few more times, though it has happened less since I sort of shelter myself from emotional people.

Also, whenever I try and meditate, my eyes water and I just want to cry hysterically like someone just died. One time this happened, I looked up and there was a little boy dressed from the 1800's. So I told him to go to the light, he didn't belong here (while I am still crying). I haven't seen him since, but the crying still happens whenever I try to meditate, so I just stopped.

I've been stopped by a random psychic on the street, a male (who gives me the creeps because of his aura and eyes) who is a year older than me, as well as Richard Ravenhawk (a Toronto psychic) telling me I am psychic/empathic. I kind of knew I was, but that was about it

I really want to take control of this, and learn how to use it so I can help people. That's why we have these gifts right? I guess you can say my gift is at a beginner level and I don't know how to make it stronger, to harness it and use it for good. I know I'm only 19, but I don't even know where to start! Someone please help me so I can take another step forward.