Any guidance would be great right now, so please, if you have an opinion on the matter comment.
My name will go unmentioned, and so will his. I've had a boyfriend for almost 3 yrs, someone I loved more than anything else in the world. We planned to get married after college, and we spent every waking hour together.
And then something changed. I felt different all of a sudden, like I could live for myself instead of for him. I'm spiritual, and when I looked deep down I found that I felt a need to live on my own for a while, but, determined as I was to have that life we'd always dreamed of, I decided to ignore the feeling.
Big mistake. My feelings for him have evaporated into a caring feeling of that of a best friend. This has happened over the past week, as I've cried my heart out trying to think of something to do. I feel like there's a block on my emotions to him. I can't feel anything when I think of the memories we've shared, and nothing comes surging back when he kisses me or says he loves me.
Upon all of this, my gifts are rising. I noticed that when I'd finished crying I could see the outline of white aura around my hand more clearly. Studying the air, I noticed that I could see the energy moving much clearer, and I almost found the outlines of what I believe to be my spirit guides. Images are flickering in the corner of my eyes, and my sense of intuition is higher than before.
Why should I have to choose love over gifts? I never got a choice, its as if my soul picked on its own. It automatically blocked my feelings as soon as I'd decided to ignore my deeper feeling of need to be alone.
We've pretty much broken up, and I can't seem to stop crying. Love doesn't just switch off. I've discovered that he's probably my karmatic soul mate because I've learned so much from him, but how is it right for him? He loves me too. It's killing him. And me.
Sorry for complaining, I just needed to know what's going on, why my gifts are intensifying all of a sudden. Please leave your thoughts here,
Blessed Be to all
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I have had the exact same thing happen to me. It started when I was 18 and I had this overwhelming love for a girl in my dreams. I didn't know who it was and all I knew was that when I woke up I was devastated that she was no longer with me. Soon after that my mom starting having dreams of a child, a little girl, that she said specifically, "This child is half mine and half someone else's." She and I were both very confused by it. We thought maybe it was one of the children she had miscarried and maybe they were coming back to spend time with her in her sleep.
Soon, I started to dream of a little girl, sometimes she was a baby and sometimes she was a toddler. She has light hair and fair skin and is just the most adorable thing that I have ever laid eyes on. I have so much love for her, more love than I have ever experienced in my entire life. I started to tell my mom about these dreams and she said, "That is the same girl that I've been dreaming about!"
We then came to realize that this girl that was "half my mom's and half someone else's" was actually my daughter to be, and her granddaughter to be I started to have dreams of her calling me mama and I would wake up with tears streaming down my face from the happiness and love I had felt during my dream. My only issue was that my fiance was not going to be her father. He was very dark skinned and had black hair and had no family that was white. I was so upset when I realized this.
It has been many years now and I have since broken up with my fiance for reasons unrelated. I have met another man who I have an amazing and undescribeable bond with. I know people say they feel that the person they are with may be their soul mate and they are perfect and blah, blah, blah, but I feel something different with him. He has light brown hair that was blonde when he was younger, along with very fair skin. On top of that, I haven't dreampt of my little girl since I've met him and neither has my mom.
There is a chance that we may be pregnant and I'm about 80% positive that he will be her father and she will be my first child. I think that maybe these feelings you are having towards this man that you have never met, may be a child that you are going to raise sometime in the future. If the latter is true, I will keep you updated with what the outcome is. Best of luck to you and remember there is a plan for us already set in play, love will work itself out. All my love. ❤