This is kind of a composition of my abilities because my first story was a little all over the place. If anyone has any insight or can offer any suggestions about how to better control anything, I would love to hear.
1. I think I can feel dead people. Or maybe the correct word is spirits? I don't know the terminology, I guess, because this is one that I'm not the most sure about.
I'm positive that I've made contact on one occasion with my grandfather after he died but it was completely unplanned. The day he died he visited me and grabbed my shoulder in a kind of tickling way that only he ever did. I was the only one in the house but I never physically saw him. I just knew he was there.
When I was very young, an infant, my mother said I used to stare at what she said was empty space, but I'd smile and laugh and never take my eyes off the "empty" space. Before I was born too, my mother had a cancer patient (my mother is a doctor) who obsessed over me and told my mother some eerie things about me having "the eye." I don't know, maybe the woman was crazy. But she was the one who told my mother that she was pregnant before my mother knew and that she would have a little girl with mossy eyes. My mom and dad both have blue eyes, but somehow I came out with a kind of green hazel, sort of like moss on willow trees. Maybe it's a coincidence. I'm named after the cancer patient. She died about a week before I was born.
At night, when I was younger, I would lay in bed unable to sleep because I could "feel" people watching me. No one was visually there, but I could feel the cold metallic turning in my stomach and I'd get goosebumps on my skin. A few times, I'd hear something whisper my name. It wasn't a good feeling though, not like when I was a baby. Whatever was watching terrified me.
Most of this stuff doesn't happen as much now. I've learned to ignore the shadows in the corners of my peripheral and I'm never in silence anymore because I don't want to hear. I even sleep with the radio and television on because I don't want to hear what no one else can.
2. I know things that other people don't.
I've dreamed things that eventually happened word for word in real life. I've never "seen" anything important like a terrorist attack or even if my high school's football team would win. Mostly I've gotten almost nausea inducing déjà vu over silly things, like my mother telling me to pick up milk on the way home as she stood a certain way or a lesson my biology teacher was teaching when he would drop his marker.
I also have this almost funny ability to know when my phone is about to ring, even if I'm not expecting a call. I'll be sitting on the couch with my phone upstairs where it's been for nearly four hours, when I'll just know that I need to go get it. Right as I walk up, almost every single time, I'll get a message. It's like clockwork.
It's kind of the same thing where I have this weird way of sensing when someone is thinking about me (or I guess that's it). Like someone whom I haven't spoken to in months will randomly pop in my head, and then later that day they'll contact me. This has happened with four people in the past month, one of them being someone I hadn't spoken to in six years.
This newest one is one I got the urge to test because of this site. I used to try to pretend I wasn't any different than anyone else, but I've learned just recently, I have a knack for locating my best friend. She'll randomly call me and ask me to tell her where she is. She won't give me any clues and I won't have any forewarning. Today I told her the intersection she was standing at in a town I've never once been to. It's kind of a chilling feeling I guess, but it happened.
3. I have a strange connection with people, especially ones I'm close to.
Tying into the knowing where my friend is, I seem to always know what's on my friends' and family's minds. Not in an I-can-hear-their-thoughts way, but like I just know what their general mood is. I know when my mother is upset the moment she walks through the door and I can tell her immediately what she needs to hear to calm down. When she relaxes, it's like I relax a little. It's the same way with my friends.
I do the same thing with people I hardly know, but it's not on the same level. Like where as I'll know the exact reason my mom is upset without having to ask her, with people I've just met, I tend to just know they're upset about something. A few times I've gotten REALLY strong feelings that just told me it was about a spouse or something really big. Once, with the lady who sold me a drink at the gas station, I knew she was upset because her pet was dying. We never even introduced ourselves, though.
I don't know how to explain how I know their emotions. It's kind of like they pour into me, like their pain becomes my pain. I feel their hurt like it's my own, more prominent if I really know the person. Sometimes it gets overwhelming and that's the reason I wish I could turn this one off.
But the good part about this reading people thing is that I'm a really good judge of people. I know when someone is lying to me and I've never been wrong about my first impression of a person's character. Never. It's strange but useful.
So that basically does it for the paranormal things I can do. I don't move plates with my mind or speak to the angels or God for that matter. I'm just a confused kid (16) trying to feel my way into a world where I don't know anything. If anyone shares in any of my "gifts" I'd like to speak with you about them. I need suggestions on how to turn the scarier ones off and how to control the ones that aren't so terrifying.
Thanks so much!
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