Confused About My Life

I've been having a lot of these experiences. So many that I'm terribly dumbfounded. Can you help me? Yes, I believe in psychic stuff.

First off. I can see or at least I think, auras. I see these random color splotches in front of me. Sometimes they'll be a solid color or a mix of them. I'm not sure if it's mine or not. When I try to reach for it, it seems like my hand is in front of it. It only happens sometimes but most times I space out and don't know what I'm doing. Is my vision getting messed up? I don't really do anything to make me lose my sight.

Sometimes I don't feel human. Sometimes I feel like I'm the age of 100 or something when other times I feel like I'm 5! I've been noticing these unusual pains on my back. Like somethings weighing me down. But there's nothing! I'm sure it's not a ghost but I'm not sure. Sometimes I'll have a dream where I fly but it doesn't work all the time. Once I had a dream where I had these big beautiful white wings. I felt the same weight on my back as I do in real life. I would fly while but then I just land for awhile and then I can't get up anymore. Then I would fall to my knees as if I were extremely tired. But I felt normal.

Also I get a Deja Vu feeling. A few times I'll get some weird dream. Then later on it'll come true. I had a dream about a video game. The main character was just talking to some guy. I think he was selling something to him. I don't really know. I couldn't see his face but for some reason I knew what he looked like. Then later my cousin is playing a video game that has the same main character. Which I knew he was in. But later on my cousin get to the point of the game where he meets the same guy! I told him, "Oh my gosh. I saw that SAME guy in a dream I had!". My cousin believes that I must have seen the future or something. I'm not entirely sure.

Recently my one of my dogs had a heart attack. Before that my aunt told me to watch her since she was breathing heavily that morning. I was sitting on the dog bed with her. When she started to breath heavily again I call my aunt as I knelt beside her. Right then I had I very strong feeling that I've been through that before. I'm completely sure that I haven't.

I KNOW this is true but I'm not sure if it's my doing. All I have to do is wish for something. Then I'll have to forget about it. Then eventually it will come true. A few days ago with the same dog that had the heart attack was still alive. She was laying on her dog bed. She had been losing weight ever since her heart attack I've felt both happy and sad for her. I just wanted her to be happy. I knelt beside her and petted her. Then I wished for her to be healed. Healed Of all her pain, and for her to be happy. Later that night she died. I wanted her to still live, but I guess that was the best way for her to heal right? Now, she's still with us. As a ghost. Sad thing is my aunt doesn't believe any of those things.