I am 19 years old. Since I can remember, I have always been a person who is affected by other people's feelings. When I walk in a room, I know how every person is feeling and I feel all of their moods. When I get really stressed out, this is a horrible feeling because I can't turn it off. If my mother is upset, I am upset. If my sister is angry, I'm very angry. There is always chaos in my head; people's moods don't go away until either I fix their problems or they deal with it themselves. It's very frustrating. My first question is whether anyone would consider this a psychic ability or just me being very susceptible to people's moods? When I tried to explain this to my Dad, he told me I was what he called an "Emotional Amplifier" or someone who takes the emotions of others', internalizes them, and then amplifies them to everyone else tenfold.
My mother, I know, is psychic in some way. But she has some history. Her and her cousin used to play Ouija board in her Grandmother's house during summers and they were haunted for a long time. Since then, she has been visited by many ghosts and claims that she can see people who are very ill. She's told me that she can see a greyish aura around people who have cancer. The thing is, she doesn't know they have cancer until a long time after when either they tell her or they die. She says she knows there are a bunch of spirits that follow her (sometimes they show themselves, sometimes they don't).
I truly believe that if I sat down alone in my house and mentally invited spirits to communicate to me, they would come in a second. I believe that I have that mental power. The thing is, I am too unbelievably scared about seeing or experiencing a spirit that I have never let myself be "opened up" to them. But I feel this aching in my mind that wants me to just sit there and communicate even though I push it away. I am a Catholic Christian and I believe very heavily in the demonic forces that demons have. That, beyond anything, would be my worst nightmare, to experience that.
My last question is whether or not these things seem to anyone to be psychic? It troubles me from time to time. I often have to push things out of my mind and I pray every night for God to protect me mentally as well as physically because I am scared. When I walk up the stairs alone or I enter the basement in the dark the first thing I think of before I let myself think anything scary is "God will protect me, God will protect me..."
Am I just scared? Or is this real?
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