I am 16 years old, and a wiccan. I don't do rituals very often, or spells. I am more interested in moving ahead in my spiritual health. However, I was talking to my mom a while ago and figured out some things.
First of all, when I was a child I could see spirits, and no they were not imaginary friends. My mother told me that I had told her, and then one night she saw one of them too. She believed me after that. My mother is not wiccan, but she did once experiment with it.
I have been having some odd things happening, and I don't know who to talk to. I've been reading about Empaths online. And the 'Seven signs you're an empath' and that sort of thing.
The thing is, all of those ring a bell so exact it's scary. I can feel the emotions of people its gotten to a point where I don't want to even be around people who are stressed. I almost absorb the emotions. Not at that time, but later on I will start feeling it.
For example, a girl at my school started to talk about her boyfriend cheating on her and it was very, very stressful. My mom picked me up at the end of the day, and just from being around the girl who was talking about it I was shaking. My mom asked me what was wrong and I told her I didn't know. Later, when the shaking had stopped I told her that story. She sighed and said 'oh'
I have always been...sensitive. But it's so horrible. If I am an empath, its not a gift at all, it's a curse! Feelings everywhere, and they're not even mine! I once almost cried randomly in class when a boy sitting near me said his grandfather died.
He didn't even say what happened, but as soon as he said the man's name, I could feel the sadness. I was afraid I would break down, for no reason at all! I've even felt the feelings of dead spirits, though not very often.
I'm a hermit, I don't like being around people. I have worked for so long to try to disconnect from the world around me, and I think it's because of the empath thing.
Is there anyway I can control it? I like to help people, and people like me helping them. I'm a good listener, and I want to be able to control this gift so I am not overwhelmed. It's hard enough going to school. Please help, any advice would be wonderful.
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I found that I don't hold on to the emotions that leak past my shields. I let them flow through me like a stream and tap into nature and Mother Earth's natural melody and peaceful emotions. I use that as a way to wash my soul clean and heal it.
I've always strived to appear "normal" because when people find out that your empathic and can take their pain away, the tend to flood you with emotions.
There was one time when I let my shields down in public and I meditated in a crowded bookstore, searching for answers. I was emotional after finally admiting to myself that my ex-boyfriend wasn't the One for me. An energy vampire started stalking me.
It freaked me out, so I invited him to church. We lost contact after he revealed his arsenal of knives and wish to drink blood. I still pray for him and learned my lesson about keeping my shields up.
The power of an empath can be a great blessing or curse. We not only have the power to absorb emotions but we can also project, reflect or refract the emotions back to the person or people around us.
You mentioned that you are Wiccan. Most of my Wiccan friends have a strong tie to nature and have shielded and protect groves to relax and meditate in. Perhaps you can find one close to you?
Personally I'm Christain but find God in Love, acceptance and compassion. Jesus told us that we should treat everyone as God does and that God makes it rain on the righteous and sinners alike. So that no matter what we think or feel about a person we should send them back love.
Even as empaths we feel their hatred or anger or fear of us, the correct response is love. I admit I'm still working on that but I've found more inner peace if I project positive emotions and allow the negative ones to roll off me into the ground or burnt away into heat that can heal the pain or evil done to the person.