It's All In The Past

This is my first post here, and I just want to say that I hope some people believe me.

To start with, I will say that I don't have a lot of psychic ability, but I do have enough to have my dreams tell me things regularly, a wide variety of things (I know it sounds kind of crazy to say that they "tell me things" but it's the only way I'm able to describe it), though every now and again I do have other things happen, but I won't go into that now.

Now on to what this is all about (at least at the moment). I tend to have dreams of the past, dreams of a past life to be exact. Most of them are just the same one over and over, though slightly different each time.

The problem is that I can't remember how it starts (like most dreams, even non-psychic, but oh well), but everything else is clear. I don't particularly know what era it was, but I always, always get the feeling of the 1600's. The dream is almost always seen in third person, but the one time that is really stuck in my head was in third person and at times in first person.

In this dream, I don't have a huge sense that the girl is me, but I also have a strong sense that she is, which has always confused me. In the dream, no one ever actually speaks, but the girl -me- is always thinking; she keeps thinking things like, "I don't want this", "I love him", "I don't love him!" and a whole lot of other things, most of them not making any sense at all.

Throughout most of the dream, the girl just goes about doing normal things; she washes clothes, she talks with people, she walks down cobblestone streets, and just "every day things" for whatever period she is in (I can't for the life of me actually figure out when she is). Almost all of these things are seen through her eyes or outside of her, and it's is all in a kind of skipping motion, as in it jumps from one scene to another without me actually realising until I think about it when I wake up.

After what seems like forever, and also an instant two images flash by, each one of two different men, one was a fair man with blonde hair and greenish hazel eyes, the other was another man with dark hair and hazel eyes. Straight after those images disappear I see the young girl standing by a river with the dark haired man; she was holding a wicker basket.

The girl turns away and starts to walk towards a dirt path, and the next thing I see is the dark haired man pushing her into the river. The girl starts to drown, and I see it through her eyes, and the image of the fair man's face flashes by. I remember her thinking, "that's really him". I think she thought that about the dark haired man.

Whenever I dream this it seems to go on forever and an instant, even while I'm still asleep and I realise what's going on, but I can't do anything. The next part of the dream isn't always in it when I actually dream it, but most of the time it is: the girl is walking down a cobblestone road wearing a dirty dress and carrying a child. Walking beside her is the fair haired man. The girl stops, seems to look at me, smiles, and looks down at the child in her arms as the man smiles. After that I wake up.

Now I know I've gone on quite a while about this one dream, but please understand that I've had this dream so many times over the past two years that basically every detail is engraved into my mind.

Personally, the only thought I can think about the girl and the two men in this dream is that the girl was married to the dark haired man, but was in love with the fair haired man. I've always thought it to be quite romantacised, and therefore unlikely, but it's the only thought that will allow itself into my head.

I hope that you could tell me what you think of the dream, whether it's actually a series of memories from a past life, or just a damn persistent recurring dream. You're opinions are greatly appreciated:)

PS. I would also like to say that I have had many dreams other than this one that were quite different, like minor premonitions and the like, but I'll save those for another day.