I apologize for the length but I really need advice. Please help.
I have been meditating everyday for months now starting after the summer when school started. I originally started to get rid of anxiety and depression problems which instantly worked. I have gotten very spiritual and have been realizing the "power" that these practices can give me. Lately I have been more aware of psychic powers and how meditation can unlock them. I have a friend who has opened up more to me about her psychic ability and now all of a sudden I am becoming more aware of mine.
I was given medicine cards from someone who thought I would be interested and through that I found that I have the ability to see the future, yet I have been fighting it. Instantly it made perfect sense and I realized that I have had a gut feeling about this and that I have been fighting it recently, scared that I would be haunted by things I would not want to know. I have been thinking about everything lately and I have been learning a lot about myself, but now things have happened and I am starting to feel somewhat lost.
2 months ago I had a surgery to remove a benign tumor from my leg so my body has been out of whack and I am just starting to walk with the use of crutches. I feel this has messed up my lower chakras because I haven't been able to do anything other than be alone and think and meditate when I used to go out a lot with friends and live a normal life while having my own spiritual one. I have gotten cold shakes recently and ignored them and thought it was from the surgery.
On friday I had my senior prom and my friend mentioned before was there and I asked about the cold shakes. She said it could be from repressing things which I had just figured out I was doing. I kept getting small shakes throughout the night and then I went to go to a friends house after prom to sleep over with people. Throughout the car ride there I was getting the shakes worse. When we arrived they got so bad that I called my parents to pick me up around 2 am. While they were on their way I was nonstop thinking/worrying. I got this pulsing in my ear which has happened before and a headache which never happens to me. I then had a sudden strong feeling that this was all an incoming vision that I may have been repressing and I need to let it happen when I get home. Instantly the cold shakes and ear pulsing stopped. The headache remained but I dealt with it. It felt like it was in the dead center of my head which I know is where the pineal gland is which is the physical third eye chakra where psychic abilities come from.
I got home and I went straight to my room to lay down, close my eyes, and let a vision come for the first time. I saw several things happening. It wasn't a clear scene which I was expecting to see, more like a montage of scenes and images which I had to piece together myself. I saw many things which all were really similar to things I have been thinking about lately about the world. I don't know if I should share it in this post.
The next day I felt horrible. I felt like I had lost control of myself and that I was not in my head. I was very very spacey and felt horribly lost and like I had no control over anything anymore. I felt like I was not fully here in my head. I had recently heard about being grounded and ungrounded and looked it up. I read some great articles and I realized that I am completely ungrounded. My recent surgery which has changed my normal life and left me always meditating. I even realized I was meditating only on my higher chakras which I realized is a horrible idea.
So basically, I am now aware that I am ungrounded. I feel better than I did, but now I am worried that my lower chakras are really messed up and weak compared to my higher ones. I have been kind of scared to meditate and don't know how I should go upon doing that again in a safe way. I need to be grounded as well as having my same spiritual self. Also I need to know how to control my new found ability to see visions. I don't want to fight them anymore and have more scary dangerous experiences, but I don't want to focus on them so much that they will happen all of the time. I want to be able to keep them tamed and be able to experience my gift in a safe positive way. Once again I am sorry for the length of this, but I really need some help and advice.
Thank you all so much for the advice you will give me:)!
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Normally shaking due to connecting with guides or visions the person is cognisance. Rituals and indigenous people shake when visions come through.
I've only seen a few students shake due to too much energy coming through, but have not heard of feeling cold for long periods of time.
And I do agree again with AnnV to lean on caution and see a doctor.
Area of psychic side, many do not acknowledge or develop it.
Upon awakening these abilities, by meditation or various practices there are times people will feel somewhat lost. This is just an adjustment. The need to think and ponder introspectively is quite normal and requires solitude clears our mind from the chatter.
Re meditating incorrectly. This would depend on type of meditation:some practices focusing at the 3rd eye is the preference of choice while adding mantra's/body positions/prayers and discipline works synergistically as grounding.
You can add three focal points: 2nd chakra, 4th-heart and 3rd eye.
The root chakra is the connection point we can intention connect to our body and earth.
Most people use the analogy of a tree or an anchor that moves toward the center of earth. By using our intent to stay connected to this point, while closing all others by our intent.
There are loads of ways people open up in meditation.
Inconvent time: Visions and information coming through?
Try setting a scheduled time morning or evening allowing meditation to flow and an open attitude to come through this time slot and upon awakening and dreaming.
You can also put out the request? "Not now", wait until I get home.
As AnneV stated relaxation and openness is the key.
Thanks for posting your story