Sleep Paralysis

Hey, in my current past as some might say my younger ages I would feel paralyzed right before sleep or while I got into sleep, it would feel like a dream but many flashes just running through my mind. It had me horrified, I would try to call for my older brother but no reaction. It has happened to me several times, more than 20. I once at a younger age had a dream of the economy/skys and planes/piratically the world collapsing infront of my middle school and by the big farm field where I live by there was a big sign by the tall grasses and it said "2012" in all the flashes and thoughts I have had have seemed extremely evil and while in the paralyzed phaze I pray for god. Now at my midway 15's almost 16 I have gained GREAT superior intelligence of enlightenment, spiritual bonds, and have gotten very passive and passionate with my mind and thought's I've been thinking positive and focusing on what I want and as I clearly put my thoughts together I put my future together, only great happiness has come towards me. My state of mind and intellectual thoughts have surpassed and advanced GREATLY and everything's been much more clearer. I know how there are illuminaties and their evil deeds and the teachings that have been tooken away and hidden from us! I have opened my eyes! I can answer the question if god is real or not! He is, but as one of the most enlightened intellectual intelligent man on earth! He was the one with great power and many teachings that he could've passed on to us! Medication, bull shiat we can heal our selves! We have great potential! They did not want jesus to pass on his teachings! He would not lable himself almighty! Because we are all equal! The power of christ is within all of us! We can all free our minds! If you'd stop being so ignorant and lazy selfish unfaithful fools! Enlightenment would be a great accomplishment if you learned how to use it! Illuminati set our state of mind into this fake reality and now we must recover, and try to abide to our real ways of life the mind is an insanely great powerful thing and logic was put there to rotten it. WE ARE THE DOMINANT SPECIES!

i felt tingly in my body twice. It happened just last night. I tried to call my mom but it was so hard. My chest got all tingly and my whole body. It happened like 3 times in one dream

I've been reading all the new stories posted, but haven't felt like commenting lately. Still, they are interesting. Perhaps in ten or twenty years will understand more...

I know. Waiting for it to open. I think it's just that people like the benefits of a sensitive person but don't want to take the responsibility of knowing about it. Last night talking about lamps and thinking of voyaging really made me realize that, and I knew it before. My husband said that he's really sick of hearing about everyone's problems. Guess I am too.

GlendaSC... Probably over 99% of the population has no clue about Astral Projection and maybe they should not. We in our lives do not share everything with everybody all the time. I would only go as far as telling anyone that I just have vivid dreams. Nobody else besides a very small circle of friends and family needs to know more. You have two extremely different cultural backgrounds the day to day one that you project to the world and of course the Native American one from which you get your gifts. Your journeys are for a spiritual course of development and whose purpose may not be reveled to you for many years. Now you shouldn't be here right now you should be at the mall picking out lamps and linens for the bedrooms... And get a new purse its time to relax. 😁

Another thing. Joined this Bible study group about a year ago. They had been meeting years. Months ago, they quit studying. They said it was more useful to talk about problems and work them out. Well said a week or two ago that I was a little tired of not studying, though helping each other is fine too. Well, I've listened a lot. Wouldn't dare share this stuff with them though.

Last night felt myself preparing to voyage, and wouldn't. I don't know if that's wrong, hope not, but I do feel very ignorant about all this stuff. And, mostly I don't know what it's for, but it must be for something? Also makes me a little angry that people can't talk about this kind of thing. Always has. I was with a friend from Bible study at a fast food place and she put in her order and started to wait. Without thinking said, they'll loose your order. Well, we waited. Finally she asked them about it and they had lost it. I thought ooops, have to be more careful. Now why should I? It's natural. Flying is probably natural. Yet, I don't dare share it with friends like when talking to them on the phone. Barely told the hub. I feel like this whole new world is opening, but it has to stay some big secret. I am going to unwind today. Goof. Holli - may take a break but you and Edmund are the only people that understand this which is important. Last night was talking to my best real world friend, about lamps. That was weird. I was thinking about voyaging and talking about lamps. Tonight meeting some friends to do some volunteer stuff, and I won't mention it then either. To be honest, I feel slightly angry. And tired of always having to be careful.

GlendaSC... O.K. Girl let's just sit down a second and have a nice cup of tea... There that's better now this Astral projection thing is wearing you down its very important right now to take a break from it. If your considering adopting and at the same time your daughter just moved away. Husband is overseas for a while etc. Its not the time to go astral projecting about different realms. Its also not time to ponder about Billy G's viewpoints about the Holy Spirit its time to relax... Think about family and to hit the mall for some sales the bedrooms need updating, time for you to get a new doo... Your roots are showing and I can't believe your still have that old purse its been what two years now ? Do these things today and you will feel much better! 😁

Glenda, you're not leaving the site are you? I would be upset. Who would I talk to?! 😭

Perhaps I am wrong. Adopting two girls and moving the son's room was my idea. The husband is fine, great with that. But, I won't be made to feel like a total dipstick voyaging which I feel like now. If I travel, will do it in my power and not needing help. I was offended to be honest. I do understand wrestling some though I hate violence. My husband was one, a wrestler, and they, my son and huband messed up my couch doing it. I thought it was funny. Got new furniture. Well, not a spring chicken. Thanks for the venting. I do like having my two cents put in. If I travel, regardless of heavenly stuff, I want it on my terms. Or I can sit back and not do it. Kewl.

Maybe this is our goodbye. I'm sure you're fine with that since I'm long winded. I just came on here for instruction. But oddly feel we are friends. I didn't expect it. Regardless, I won't be used or made to feel weak. I still resent that... Hated needed help voyaging. I have never felt so helpless. What was that

Edmund like my last voyage I felt a thing like my last voyage about to happen, a a little weak. It was a little embarrassing, the last one, actually. I don't like that so much. Not use to weak in the real world. I don't know whose hand I held. I am fighting this tonight's voyage even if the last one is the last. I will explain to the hubby and he might be sad or relieved. I don't enjoy being embarrassed is all I know. I reject feeling weak. You and Holli have helped me see ahead. That's all I know right now. Fighting voyaging now. It's my choice and I choose it later. Not now. Thought I should tell you though, and Holli. I don't know if voyaging is my thing. Adopting young ones sounds sweeter than traveling. And safer and easier? Have you read about the Holy Spirit and Billy Graham? He actually admitted it was odd. I did not expect it. Bought the old book today just before picking my son up from school. Why I mentioned it today. I read a few pages. Compared to Edmund and Holli, I feel really, really, really dumb. I understood the book though. B. Graham said that he didn't. I found that a little odd. Well, if true, we have a powerful spirit leading us and hard times are nearer. I wonder. Have always felt, bring it on. Even a little just to feel weak. I don't know what that means. I will not voyage until I choose. Take it or not. I don't care.

Glenda... When the subject is old testament I go to the jewish Torah and talmud its the best source for that subject. New testament plenty to read I like to get a few different viewpoints and then make up my mind. I'll try to grab anything on cultural anthropology and psychology and of course I honestly think I read every darn ghost story on the web. New age I guess I just skim through it. Sometimes I think there is to much of that stuff. So yes I have read a lot but still doing it is still the best way I'm just somewhat curious and like some background on the subject before I go experience it for myself... But then again I am probably compensating for the lack of psychic skills ! 😁

Edmund - wish I had more study/background in anything besides writing techniques/ school subject stuff. Caught my ear Sunday and remembered the story of the ladder from childhood. Get a few verses on Sundays. But, bought Bill Graham's book on The Holy Spirit and have read some. Been here a month or two and learned a lot. Bought a few new age books and selectively reading. Suggestions on reading material are welcome, just give me time. Daughter brought all her stuff home and going through. Donate pile, give to friends pile, throw-away pile. Getting it out quick because hate the clutter of it. Anyway, doing projects. Actually, compared to a lot of people here, probably pretty ignorant. I just learned the term astral projection a few months ago...

Hey Holli - about to run to the post office and bank. Our preacher said a few weeks ago that his son was on a picnic table on his skateboard about to shoot down. He told him, "If you fall and break your neck, don't come running to me!" He's wise too. Haha! Sounds just like most of us parents.

Glenda, before you talk to hubby, pray. Ask God to reveal to you when and how to talk to him. Ask God to soften his heart towards you and to open up his understanding. Doing things under our own power, and our own wisdom, is like trying to push a boulder up a hill. Then, once we finally get it at the top, it starts rolling backwards and almost crushes us. I say put it in His hands, and ask Him to give you peace about it until He resolves the situation. Many times it takes us banging our heads up against the wall a few times before we finally turn to God and ask His help. But He should always be our first stop. My favorite pastor always says when we have a problem, "Don't run to the phone, run to the throne!" 😆

I find it funny. If I call my daughter, have to remember she is five hours earlier. My husband is five hours later. My oldest son is one hour earlier. My youngest son is the only one in my time zone. Phoned my daughter yesterday and left her a message that any crisis that happened where she needed to phone her dad would be best between 7 a.m. And noon her time because he's ten hours later than her.

Holli - my main concern talking to the hub about any of this was that he would think I was loosing it. He believed me. Then I remembered that in 2000 had a flying dream (voyaging) four nights in a row. Asked the person with me questions, but didn't get answers. Parents crying over children. Bits of it, very sad. Told the hubby after the fourth night. Two days later a plane with French students crashed in the ocean. All the pieces fit. We never talked about it. Later, another plane, but I knew what was happening, very detailed, but not the identify of the plane or anything helpful to stop it. Then I made them stop. If he had freaked Saturday not just been dazed, would have tried to stop them again. Lucid dreams are one thing. Voyaging still kind of seems odd to me. I do think he's able to take this. We'll see. I think he felt the strong peace on Sunday and Monday before he left. He's been plagued by late planes and long waits lately. I told him Monday he wouldn't have that to England, might be early. He was early a little. That was very nice. I hope he feels it isn't a bad thing.

Glenda, you are not boring me at all. I leave out information on a daily basis. I think people either won't want to hear it, or they can't handle it. I don't have time to post everything right now because I'm at work. When I have more free time during the day, I will post more. Take care hun. ❤

Edmund - TY - promise to cut down on the writing. Getting ready to voyage again. It's a feeling, a preparation thing. Going to rake leaves a few hours and think about it. When little, always knew things. Parents disliked it so ignored it and played dumb. Well, then life learning came along and did the same thing. Remember my mom telling me not to play dumb, so I sorted out the two. A little confusing to a little, little child. So I am a newbie, despite the experiences. Have never studied, meditated, or read until the past two weeks. Called voyaging flying for years. Thought they were weird dreams until I started seeing future stuff, very clearly. Anyway, going to go do my work.

Glenda... Its not boring at all its what we do ! Its kind of interesting that you pulled up the Jacob story... If you do some background on it check the Jewish version they always give some nice commentary ! 😁

Edmund - I have the Amplified Bible. It says he wrestled God. Says to see Genesis 32:30 and Hosea 12:3-7. Have no idea about it or who I was with. Not sure whose hand I held. Will probably know later. I think, like you and your spouse, that we are in a transition and moving closer to harder spiritual situations. It's nice to find someone who has done this before and get advice. ThankS!

Edmund and Holli - realize this is probably boring you also. Sorry. I'll stop. Just needed a little help on these first new things happening.

Glenda... Well first things first... Jacob wrestled an angel the "angel of Esau," and their struggle, which "raised dust up to the Supernal Throne," is the cosmic struggle between two nations and two worlds... The spirituality of Israel and the materiality of Rome. The night through which they wrestled is the long and dark galut ("exile"), in the course of which Jacob's descendants suffer bodily harm and spiritual anguish, but emerge victorious. So now that you mention it everybody has a cosmic struggle of sorts in their lives... They also fear exile "rejection" and of course struggles also leave their scars... Now I can believe that an Angel of the Lord held your hand that night of your voyage but like you thought I don't think it was God.

Most psychic people that I know of are not the carnival gypsy type the few that I know of are loved by children and animals and attract a wide variety of people around them and in their lives because they are spiritually secure no matter how many battle scars there are. I have spent some time as a child enjoying my youth. I have spent time as a warrior of sorts with a career in the service and as a martial artist and I have along with my wife raised a family... Now with my wife I enjoy the grandchildren and I pursue a deeper spirituality. Your almost there... Get the kids setteled in to adulthood, careers, etc. And then you can kick back some go on little spiritual quests and enjoy ! 😁

p.s. Jacob wrestled a man. Then, after the hip dislocation thought it was an Angel. Then later realized it was God, if I understood correctly. Well, that does seem the same sequence to me. I find it odd. Haven't wanted to voyage since, but will later. I want to think about this one first.

Edmund, pestering again, and Holli - I have mixed feelings about posting this, but guess it's okay. I feel a need to get opinions and not sure the hub is ready for it yet. Trying to go easy on my logic person. And, he doesn't know about this stuff like the two of you. Well my last voyage, I left out a few things. You probably sensed it. After I went where I was suppose to go, and flying back holding the woman's hand, suddenly wondered whose hand it was... It felt strong. I glanced and asked are you God? I felt a yes, but I immediately rejected the answer and thought no, he shows himself as a burning bush or bright light so must be someone close to him and didn't ask again. Sunday a TV preacher, which we never watch them hardly ever, was talking about Jacob. He wrestled God all night, thought he was a man. Then later, realized he had wrestled God. The timing seems right for me to hear this. Never had before that I know of. Well walked around the mall Saturday to relax. I would glance up from something and some person, a woman or man, would be watching me kind of unaware of it, maybe dazed a little. Well, I'm no beauty queen - haha. It made me feel so odd that I finally left. Yesterday went to the dentist to take my son. A little girl was waiting for her mom and playing with toys. I was tired and wanted to read magazines. The second I walked in, she stopped and just wanted to visit me. Finally she left me alone. I've always had a problem with people bothering me, but not like this. I think the hub might have noticed it. He's always been a little watchful, but seemed more. He left for two wks for Europe yesterday. I think he needed the time to think so that timing was good there also. I wear glasses to drive and have for years. Not great distance vision. In the past 6 or 7 years, the reading vision keeps getting worse. Have about 7 pairs of reading glasses from the Dollar Tree. Yesterday at the dentist started reading a magazine then realized I hadn't gotten out my reading glasses. Then realized, I didn't need them. My vision, I think, is better. Still not great. Easier to read with reading glasses, esp. Very small print, but even that I can read now. Everyday since that dream, I seem a little different. I can't explain. More relaxed, peaceful. Music and fresh air seem better. It's nice. I think, not sure, that even the hubby felt it. He seemed to feel different Sunday, his mood. Told him about the voyage things Saturday. Not everything of course. Have never told everything because it would be too long and bore people. What do you think?

Hey all - it's been a crazy day. Hope tomorrow is slower. The hubby was watching church on TV before real church on Sunday. Have you ever read like Genesis the 29-33 chapters? Wow. I think he is trying to adapt to it. He still looks at me funny, like he has sometimes when things have happened only now it's all the time. But, I think in time, he'll get use to it. So far he's never ran out the door freaking out. Did see his hands shaking a few times. But he's good at adapting I think. Have to run... Son has the dentist. Ty for the advice Holli - will read it a few times when I don't have to leave! And thanks too Edmund. It was a sad good-bye this time.

Glenda, seems like you are being pressed from every side. I'm now noticing lately that I can pick up people's emotions by reading what they wrote. You need some time to recharge your batteries. Kinda hard to do with so many things demanding your attention, though. One thing about women is that we tend to find strength when didn't know we had any left. You will soldier through. You're at one of those pivotal cross-roads in life where several life changing things are happening at once. People tend to think the older they get, the less life changes. That is so far from the truth. Unless you lock yourself away in a cave and live life as a hermit, life will challenge you day-to-day.

I know it's hard when the one person in the world that should love you no matter what, begins to question the person that you are. You can't change you. They either have to accept and adapt, or make some hard decisions. You're not crazy, strung out on drugs, or running off with the pool boy. I think this "problem" is not as bad as one might think it is. Usually people get scared of things because they are unfamiliar with it, or have no understanding on what it really is about. I think you should encourage hubby to study up on your gifts. If he is a reader, get him some books on the subject. Or maybe some informational DVDs if he is more of a tv guy. The internet is a wonderful source for information. Print some stuff off for him to read. Once he has a better understanding of who you are, and that your gift is not a bad thing, maybe he will be better equipped to deal with it.

Positive change doesn't happen over night. I would simply ask my husband, "Do you love me?" and work from there. If someone truly loves you, they will be willing to do what it takes to accept every part of you. He doesn't have to shout from the rooftop that his wife experiences OBE... And other things, lol. But, in the privacy of your home, you both can find a way to compromise and get past the pink elephant standing in the middle of the living room. You really don't need his permission to be who you are. The only real question is whether or not he's willing to love you for who you are. We all have little things about us that our significant others wish would disappear, but the truth of the matter is that's who we are. They have to learn to deal with it, and not let it drive a wedge into the relationship. You didn't ask to be this way, and he's know about it for a long time now. It's time to sit down and find a way to compromise. You can't turn things off for someone else. It will just build up inside of you and come out in other ways which could STILL cause problems between you two. You guys have too much invested in each other to let something like this get everything else off track. ❤

GlendaSC... Wow took the weekend off and I have a lot to catch up on... The demonic pig thing was a visitor of mine when I was a teen. Convenient form for evil to take to terrorize me. Just scanning some of your posts it seems with the kids growing up and moving out/away your getting the empty nest syndrome my wife and I went through it also... Its not easy !

Glenda only some of it is dry :P as for adopting the two children that is really up to you, but you seem as if you want to explore more aspects of your own life rather than live through some more children again no offense. As for your husband... You should ask him how he feels about this... Or if he wants the kids more than you haha.