I think I can feel things that I cannot see. It's very non-descript, though.
When I was young, I would sometimes feel a need to go outside and just stand there. Like I'd be sitting on my computer, and next thing I knew I have an urge to run outside and stand on the street corner, feeling things around me. I'd be asked what was out there, and I'd always answers nothing because "nothing" was out of the ordinary. I just needed to stand out there until I felt it pass. Then I'd go inside and continue like nothing happened. Usually, it happened at night. Before bed, I used to have to check out my window into the backyard. Sometimes, that yard drew me into it, just to stand there, waiting for the feeling to pass. Other times, I'd be drawn to the park on the next block or the strip of trees behind it.
When it was really strong, I would try talking to it, just a greeting or what was on my mind. One time, I was standing on the corner, and I heard a voice down the block call my name. That was a weird occasion because a friend was following me outside, so it was like voice, then her and it got jumbled.
Also, when I'm alone with my thoughts, I feel the need to check around me in the room because I feel like something is there. But nothing ever is, and I feel rather strongly that I don't want anything to be there. I have always pursued this weird feeling, but I've also had a strong avoidance of actually seeing anything It's not just that I'm hyper-aware but also like I can almost imagine varying possibilities, weird things.
Also, I am incredibly emotionally sensitive. I feel emotions very powerfully, often overwhelmingly to the point where I can only cry. I enjoy the crying that comes after strong emotions, though. It's like an explanation that surrounds me but it is happening in a code I cannot understand, like understanding on a weird level.
If I read a story, I tend to take on the emotional tone and the subtle attitudes of the characters. I will on a small-scale live out what I read. It's weird, and the emotions can be over-powering.
I used to write it off as me being paranoid, and I am because you cannot really help it when you are hyper-sensitive/ aware. Does anyone else get these vague feelings? I would like to understand it more because I'm an artist and really enjoy human emotions.
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I'm 29 years old now and what you have written and described is freakishly 100% exactly what I myself have felt since the age of about 8 years old and onwards. Just before finding this site and reading your experience I had a intence emotional feeling of helplessness and like your self when straight outside where I did infact also shed tears. These feeling are so strange and I have also just passed them off like I'm just weired or maybe depressed. The fact I'm still having them leads me to know that being depressed is definitely not the case as my life has honestly never been better. I too also see brief passing shadow like figures regularly and on a few occasions like "eyesontheskies" had the real intense ringing/buzzing experience especialy when entering the room of someone deseased. I have always very rarely spoken of these feeling and experiences unless someone who has also had them has confronted me about thier experiences first, but now I'm trying to talk about and interact with similar people more to hopefuly get some kind of closure, learn how to controll or even be better at it.
Please let me know if and how you progress with your experiences as I would much appriciate to hear them and any thoughts you may have too.
Thank a bunch matey,
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