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I haven't been here in a while... Must admit that the reassurance I had before was brilliant and kept me grounded for a while. But now I need to ask some advice. Recently I feel as though my initial coincidental feelings are taking over my life. I think I may be much more of an empath than I may have realised.

It is getting to the point where I am literally feeling other people's pain, albeit only those close to me. My mother is due to have a gall bladder op, but two weeks before she was diagnosed I got the pains, excrutiating and to the point where I had a CAT scan, because they thought I had gall stones. My scan of course showed nothing, hers a gall stone the size of a golf ball, with pain in the same area. Since she has booked her op, mine hasn't worried me since!

But that in itself is not the reason for me feeling like I'm losing it. It is the emotional impact I feel, more and more every day, by everyday things and people and now even people that I am not so close to.

When people are sad, mad, I feel every tinge, every feeling, my mood changes to reflect theirs. It happens with everyone, I seem to be taking on everything. Certain people close to me who have psychological issues, I find myself to be different, withdrawn, sometimes angry and soon as they enter my presence. I have a high tolerance for blood and gore, but if I watch something inhumane or something where there is loss of an innocent life I absolutely break down. I cry as if it was my child or parent, as if I'm mourning someone.

In fact, now, if someone tears up in front of me, I'm close to tears myself. I can't even take constructive criticism any more, it cuts me to my very soul. I had resided myself to the fact that I was over sensitive or suffered from depression, but have ruled those out. In quiet when I am alone, I feel so centred, it's just my emotions, no one elses. Nothing that I can't shake off anyway. I'm terrified of going crazy here. I would love to be happy for my children and husband but feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders.

I am going to see a medium/intuitive psychic to see what she says next week, to somehow clarify these feelings to me, but has anyone had these experiences as well, and what can I do, meditation, yoga, I'm willing to try anything (except antidepressants because I know I am not crazy!) The first time I posted here, I think these feelings were just about starting to surface, every day I get more sensitive to the world around, I feel it every day to be worse than the last. Help!

Thank you for the advices so far. An update, the uneasiness that I felt has now decreased a lot. I'm not sure why. For the last 2 weeks I have been making everyone close to me promise to be safe. So maybe I stopped or averted something that may have happened by doing that. I'm not sure.
I think you're right nikkifoster, I mainly feel these things at the moment much more than see them, and I think I become scared because I don't know how else to react, my uneasiness makes me block them out.
May need some work to decipher all the cryptic and random comments, but I really do feel like I have to work on this. Something keeps me from being afraid though of all this, maybe just morbid curiosity.