Too Much Power Inside. Death. My Body Breaking Down. Help?

As a channeller/medium we must be careful. It is a known fact that
Many become Diabetic and some get other health problem due to ignoring physical symptoms. If you suffer seizures it is a medical fact that the brain suffers.

Our bodies and mind are vessels or conduits which align with Higher energies. With your health at present you need to continue in meditation. Putting out short questions re personal patterns and ask why you are in poor health.
Re seizures. Inquire re mportance guidance on how to work around this with channelling from your main guide.

It is not enough to have an innate ability. We must be skillful and committed to prep/connect/heal/balance and know how to be karmically be accountable to move energy as well as how to connect to higher energies before starting work. Setting boundaries to have a life in which we walk in peace 24/7. As what we do around the clock is taken into the work.
If you get an e-book by Sarah Tyler Walters.
Title: Get Real about you and your Aura. You will find this a big help.
For self examination book to help with self talk of the mind.
Title- All the rage Buddhist wisdom on anger and acceptance. Edited by Andrea Miller

So connecting to our Door keeper/Gate keeper aka Protector is very important. Google www.astarcomandcrew.net is the closest definition I can find.
As a they can not pass against our free will. That is something they can not over ride.

You will come out of this but the time frame will depend on your own dedication and knowledge.

My own learning and practice of Oppression of Christians use authority-biblical scriptures plus supplication as a group.Possession-Catholics use incantations and prayers. Metaphysical use energy and laws sometimes with guides.
All of this is hard work. I believe protection and knowledge of our guides plus working with door keeper is important.

Power outlashes are when you have too much energy or power in you and you lose control and something happens, typically bad. Also you seem to be, no offense, more negatively charged. The Demons and negative energy will be worse. Again try to give it to another psychic that is more positively charged. Or release it into your aura. You could also find a psychic vampire or negation to either drain your energy or block it. If I knew you more personally I could do it, but I dont

You're no more alone than any of us are. I haven't met another who can negate energy, but it doesn't mean I'm alone. Neither are you. Don't give up.

I'm trying to stay calm. I'll believe you if you say I'll be fine. It's just so terrifying sometimes. Being able to flood an area and suddenly everything is flooded in a bright sparkling orange and purple. Or tying to keep my energy in check so suddenly a dark flame isn't wrapping around someone throat when I'm angry. I once took a picture of the open mirror portal at work and not only me but everyone I showed it to was able to outline the figure that stood next to me and found myself just constantly staring into it. Walking down the street and wake up as an animal of darkness being drawn to demons so I can be the one to fight them so I can protect innocent people so they don't end up like me. Knowing when someone is going to die. Being able to perform wiccan rituals with just a thought. I'll just take deep breaths and try to keep calm for a year like you both told me too. I just wish I knew why my gifts are so negative and I'm only alive at night and drawn to the moon. Its a rather lonely and terrifying path

I was reading threw that site wow. I relate to most everything on there.

I was first adopted at a few months old and I grew up thinking it was my fault and hated myself. I was severely abused as a kid for 8 years often being left alone with my abusive dad while I'd visit my mom wrapped up in tubes in the hospital where she spent at least 3 months per year. If you know me you know how much I love and adore and love my mom. Spent a long time fighting with the idea of suicide during all of this was when I started being hunted by demons in real life and my dreams. I got professional help after that. Not before I'd completely detached myself from this world. Was so lost in my dreams I could feel. If I was running I could feel a stick stab up threw my foot and felt the blood as I ran under my foot as I ran but I never saw the blood. Then I'd wake up and I could slam my foot in the door or rub an alcohol swab on my eye lid and felt nothing but I could always see the blood. Actually became confused between reality and dreams. When I came back, when my soul found my body again was when I'd started to tell the future, see threw other peoples eyes, take other peoples pain as my own. Then I started having seizures a few years. Had just as bad of years though different but just as bad circumstances until I turned 22 and moved to different state and finally started to enjoy life. Then it was in these last few months that I awoke in my new body

From what I've read it seems like your past has a lot more than you'd think about all of this.

(continue to seek advice, read these great responses, & medical help) but I would like to add you are going to be fine when it's over, maybe a year-ish. Listen to binureal beats (youtube) when you're anxious. This is a transition where our bodies are becoming stronger and meantime it's taking a toll, calm is key. Don't be afraid.

❤ LAW

Sorry for the 3rd post in a row...

No! I don't know what my friend is. I'm an almost exact mini version of him as he's 20 years older than me. My teacher told my little brother he's chaotic neutral and I know I'm lawful evil and I feel highly uncomfortable around the sun or anyone happy or positive aligned

Power outlashes? What is that? I never properly learned how to control my power. I always walk around alone at night every night around 10-11pm either rain, snow or clear sky. I know this sounds odd but on occasion I feel like I have fangs and I know I'm surrounded by a dark almost flame that keeps me safe from the darkness only I can see and I feel demons, spirits hiding from me in fear. Every once in awhile since its been so long since I've released that power I'll find it almost trying to last out at humans that pass by. My vision will also blurr and my world becomes fuzzy like I'm seeing in grey and I suddenly notice every movement and I'll find myself running down random streets looking for something I know I can see but I can't actually see. Although I'll get frustrated because he stopped talking to me before I learned how fight...

That post slightly confused me and gave me chills at the same time. Yes! I've had seizures. I've had them since I was 18 although I wasn't properly diagnosed until I was 24. My last one was on Thanksgiving of last year. I'm not sure what type they were... But they were so bad I'd lose all feeling in my fingers, lips and my brain would get really fuzzy. Suddenly nothing made sense. I couldn't tell you my own name. I'd drop what I was holding and if I didn't sit down I'd wake up with people hovering over me.

So... I'm really new at this. The teacher said I've had this my whole life but between now and by the end of my 26th year everything should be clear. We were working on energy storing and releasing so my aura doesn't become so powerful with a negative alignment that I make people uncomfortable. But... That was a few months ago.

So- I've never tired to get in contact with my guides and what is a door keeper? I know my familiar... And I can see and feel her but I don't know how to use her either.

ALSO! Someone did die... It would out of my normal group of 3 people. Which is odd but it isn't that odd. I've had it happen on occasion. A friend of mine- someone really close to him died of stage 4 cancer. After I found out and the day after it happened suddenly I can eat food again and honestly feel GREAT! It feel like nothing was ever wrong. Everything feels clear and healthy and I feel really solid again

You need to release energy healthily ASAP. This happens to me, but I call it shadowing. Since my gifts are more positive to much evil and negative energy, especially if I've been battling or shielding myself from it, overwhelms me and I start having power outlashes, I get weak and sleep a lot and then bad things start happening around me. You have to find an outlet. You said you bonded to 3 people, are any of these other people psychic as well? If they are and there of the opposite power alignment as you, you can release your energy through your bind to them, it is healthy for them and strengthens them. If not, you can release it into your aura and it should eventually dissipate

Your Thread is fine.

You have a lot going on.

Are you ok in answering my questions? Did you have seizures before your training? What type of seizures so you have?

Here is info you may find helpful.
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The Spiritual Personality

If you can get a Homeopathic to cross reference meds:see if Agathus Austratilis or St Ignatius would help clear some of this.
The lightest Bach's flowers is Walnut which you might wish to checkout. The depression comes to people who channel. I have suffered myself. Because energy is like a message not only clears what we aim at but it moves through us drawing up our show subconscious emotions/thoughts. If you think about it when working your breathing changes. Deep long exhaling can bring up our emotions to the surface so we can heal any back issues. So we can be a clear vessel.

Zen or Gasho meditation.
Focus on void or moon can being balance. Physical exercise stretches the spine and can help.

Your root chakra affected-body/Heart-astral and throat-deals with guides/Casual-connection in channelling. Your source of power-stomach. The stomach does not only serve as an alarm when neg is around but the stomach is sensitive to fear.
If you keep at it. It will clear this can last quite a while.

If you had seizures before.
Really important to get alone and get guidance. As your aura can be vulnerable. You would need full knowledge of your Door Keeper and guides there to help and guide.

I don't know if any of this is the kind of experiences you're suppose to share on here... If not people can feel free to delete this thread.

First off I guess you should know I was being trained to fight demons. My teacher had been blessed as a priest and given the calling to release people of demons.

I've stopped doing anything. I never even meant to do anything more that what my teacher had told me to do in the first place. Looking threw someones eyes, healing where they hurt. That was all out of my control. I'd do everything he said... Except close a mirror portal. I'd just do what he told me to do, asked it for help, sometimes I'd hear a loving voice tell me it was okay when I asked if I could borrow the energy, always focused on exactly what it was for always for peace, protection and to help others from darkness and find inner light- like the 2 times I flooded an area was at my teachers assistance when we purified a line when a very well known demon- one I can't say- especially at night and online tainted it. The second time was when we have demons living at work and an open mirror portal. We've had a demon exorcist tell us that it was leaking darkness and needed help. So with his assistance we set up a safe haven for the people that work there. He'd always tie up the few loose ends and tell me I did great and to get some rest, go home and lie down, drink some tea that the more I grew used to this the less energy I'd need to move.

He was testing me over the course of a week a few months ago. I didn't know it. It was during the worst week and I slightly snapped when I found out. Told him I was done. Didn't hear from him after that. Finally asked him if he was done teaching me after a few weeks. Told me no. That he wanted me to take a break. That he was going to back off. That was back in August. I asked another friend of our what happened and he said he was going threw something. Which... He was going threw some stuff when he met me and he said he shouldn't have really taken me as a student but he'd never met anyone like me- He looked- very hard then I randomly showed up in his life. Asked why I've been hunted my whole life. He told me I'm an indigo child, I've very strong and have a natural act for moving energy. He told me I was given a calling and that's why I was being hunted- they wanted the power for themselves and that's why I was also being bargained with and was trying to be possessed.

I'm dark. I don't work well with positive or the sun, light. Any of the sort. I need to be alive at night.

You know... It never bothered me. Moving energy. Casting wiccan spells with just a thought. I can do all that fine. Always have been able to as long as I ask, create, then say thank you with a prayer. It was after my fragile life shattered and I was really sad, depressed and thought about death that messed my health and body up. When I recovered from that was when my body started rapidly declining. That was when I developed throwing up blood, weakness, fainting... That was also when my feeling that someone I knew and loved was going to die. It was so strong. It just physically hurts. Still does. The only time I feel better is when I'm able to match my energy to the moon outside. It's calming and soothing. This new feeling- That I know when someone is going to die is terrible. I have a weak stomach and that's where the feeling comes from so I guess it would make sense if my stomach would be the place to get really sick and rip apart. It started a week or so ago. It usually takes a month or so for what I see to come true. I've only been throwing up blood again for about a week.

Now- I have a protection spell around my bedroom. My teacher helped me set up so I could practice magic in my bedroom and the energy would stay in here instead of going out into the universe and evil, darkness, or anything would stay outside. The two couldn't over lap. I'll sense a demon outside but I'm too weak to do anything about it. It's almost like they laugh instead of being feared by me. It hurts. So bad. The stronger this feeling is getting the more sick I'm getting.

I'll try your advice. The ONLY thing I'm doing at the moment is checking to see what color my aura is.

It fade in and out of these 3 colors:
Lemon yellow - This represents a fear of loss. This may be the loss of a job, divorce, a lifestyle change, loss of health or fear of losing control over your destiny.

Dark blue, even cloudy - You don't trust the future and can't face the truth because of your desire to take control.

Forest green - You're a natural healer.

When we move large amounts of energy and do not properly set up a back up system to help the energy work can have a back lash. The intention is like a rocket if there is not enough energy it pulls it from a reserve if no reserve it pulls from your old teacher possibly making them accident prone or experience bad luck. It will drain your energy and your body plus those who live with you to include pets... It sounds as if your teach is aware you are not connecting properly and has helped you as much as you were open to and can not assist any more.

It would be wise to stop any
Psychic work. Do some soul searching and ask for guidance from your guides and door keeper. Do some grounding work.
Or go for hands on healing as it appears you are experiencing energy blockages.

Learn about storing and moving energy set up day and night meditation with grounding work armchairs balancing.

With magic they key is to have a pure intention and have permission before working. Understanding our self and our own health going down we should not work.

This is not a judgement. We are all learning and no one does everything perfectly. Hope this helps

My guardian and I have heard of this happening, usually with strong empaths that can't seem to clear themselves properly. It'd be nice if we lived closer together, but I still want to try and help. I'll be honest, I've never tried voiding anyone's energy from so far away, but I'll take it as a challenge. I hope you feel better soon.

i would suggest praying even if your not a religious person ask what ever you believe in as your God to take away the pain and energy that is tearing you down.

I have doctors appointments like no other for my health. It just seems like the more I mentally break then recover the stronger my energy is. The easier it is to sense death, the easier and more accurate manipulating energy becomes but at the same time my body gets worse and worse. I never made this connection before this last time life came crashing down.

How do you release energy rather that taking it?

Wow, I haven't heard anything like this...Hmm...It is possible that your health is failing... Maybe try to release the energy instead of take it.