It's been a while since I've used to this site, but things never slowed down in my life. As a child, I often saw shadowy figures and had regular attacks. It was common for beings to enter my dream when they weren't able to get to me in the real world. Both sides of my family are intuitive particularly my father's side. Over five years ago, I had a dream with a mystical being in my back yard. She sat on my fence and communicated telepathically. She warned me that the closer it gets, the more I'd begin to see. This was in reference to a previous dream I had regarding 2020.
As much as I wanted to dismiss those dreams, they've stuck with me because they weren't just dreams. Deep down, I know that what occurred was real, but I have a hard time believing. Anyway, now it's 2019 and my abilities are changing. In the past, I've had occasional isolated incidences where I heard people talking within my home, but then it would quickly go away. I've also been physically hit once, and partially dragged from the bed (Side note: I always had the feeling that leaving feet hanging off the bed was not a good idea. I told myself it was irrational, but then something grabbed my ankle and yanked it. No more feet off the bed for me.) A number of supernatural things have occurred, but it was my version of "normal". My normal is now being disturbed.
A couple of weeks ago, I saw the outline of a man. Usually I would look away because they would start to take shape which often frightened me. Being older, I'm not as afraid as I used to be. I glanced a bit longer and then turned my head. Later in the week, I saw a man walk across my kitchen who was translucent. It startled me and I was shocked. He wasn't completely solid, but the fact that he wasn't a shadowy outline or figure really threw me for a loop. My mind immediately went back to what the lady told me, but I quickly dismissed it as a one time thing. Last night, I saw another shadowy figure walking out of a room. No problem, I'm used to it. When I made it back into my bedroom, I felt the presence of someone else. I was slightly afraid, but it was fine. I was determined to go to bed. I laid down thinking about what I had to do the next day, and then I heard the voice of a girl. She asked me a question. I was like "Wtf? Okay, I must be super tired. Was that my mind making up a voice?" But then, I heard the voice of a man. He told her "Shhh, be quiet." He didn't want her speaking to me. Then I could briefly hear a third voice.
By this time, I was definitely more than unsettled. I was determined to sleep in my room and not on the couch, so I turned on my tv. I streamed christian music as a way to calm myself. I kept telling myself that it wasn't real and the music will level out the energy. When the music started, it would sing one line and then stop. Sing one line again, and then stop. Now I stream music constantly all day. I had zero problems with it. When it does lag, it'll disconnect. This was different. I immediately left the room after that.
My question is, do abilities strengthen with age? Could it be that I blocked myself off and now since I'm older and more confident the child lock is coming off? I don't know what to make of this. Hearing clearly wasn't an ability I thought I had. I could feel emotions and get mental images, but to hear their voices like that, I don't know. Then to clearly see a man walk across my kitchen is out there for me. I don't have anyone to discuss this with. My dad told me this morning that he told them to never speak to us, so that could be why she was hushed. I have so many questions with limited answers. Unlike my dad, I'm not trying to get rid of them, but I want to know what's going on with me.
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