Visions, Shadows, Azaroth, Energy, Empathy, Future Telling

I can see energy, its all around. It is on every object. It takes all shapes and forms. Aura's are the most fascinating part. I want to better understand everything. I want to embrace it. I have been trying meditation. But - there is this energy, this presence that fallows me. I tried talking to it once. It informed me that it's name was Azaroth (or something around there). My closet friend and boyfriend (the only boyfriend it has ever liked) heard it too. I do not understand, is this my guardian? Sometimes he is very angry at me and gives me nightmares, other times it is almost as if someone is holding me. It upsets me, I do not understand what it wants from me. It only told me it's name. Then there are the shadows, some are light and the others are dark. Then there is fore telling things before they happen, or what people are going to say or do or the answers to problems or what cards people are holding in card games, sometimes if I'm really lucky even their thoughts. Other times, I can some how manage to slow things down a bit and invade other's energy fields. I can push or pull on them. There is so much more that has happened to me that I long to understand. Strange things have happened to me since I was around seven years old. I have never fit in any social group and have always been perceived as strange. Tomorrow I am turning seventeen and yearn for answers. I am even picking up studying about the subjects, I have had tarot cards for years and have just started getting more and more interested. As I grow older more and more things start happening. Then there are my vivid, lucid dreams. They seem so real, and I can remember all of them, mostly. My parents have told me its always been this way. My dreams are so strange I need help understanding them too. Anything will trigger me to remember them. I have strong cases of deja-vu and I suffer from too much empathy. I yearn to help those around me and see the world from such a strange point of view I hardly know anymore. It feels good to finally vent to people who are like me, or have similar experiences. I have only seen three ghosts in my lifetime. One was an army vet and I believe that he was my mom's dad. I would continue but I would rather get some answers right now and I don't want to bore you. But if you would like to know more and could help me get a better understanding about what is happening to me I would be glad to hear from you. Anything helps.