Psychic And Magical Abilities

I suppose the first thing I should do is explain a bit about myself before going into all of this. That said I might be cramming a lot of information into this post. Both about me personally and about my experiences leading up to this. For that I apologize.

To start pretty much from the beginning... My name is Alyssa, typically I go by Aya. I'm 18 and a solitary practitioner of Wicca. I wouldn't say my parents are overly religious but they do tend to frown upon other religions other than Christianity because of their own upbringings. As such for the past three years since I started seriously learning and practicing Wicca I've written it off to them as "Research" and hidden a number of my books from sight. In fact a few of the ones they've found they've burned and called me a Heretic for owning.

Okay, with the basics of my magical life out of the way I'll get into some other things.

At a young age I learned that I was a precognitive dreamer. I would foresee the deaths of certain people around me and within a month of these dreams those people would die. I was about eight at the time. These were not people I was terribly close to and I was so young that I was not forced to go to their funerals however I was either related to them or they were a family friend of some sort. At the age of eleven my precognitive dreaming was happening more frequently but at the same time I was able to see further into the future. I was seeing one to two years in the future at this point at times.

At the age of twelve I had an awful thing happen to me that I won't mention but it ruled over my life through nightmares after it for a very long time. In a way it still influences my life but I won't go into it because it's personal on an extreme level and makes me uncomfortable.

At the age of thirteen I began online dating. A few months later we ended up meeting. We didn't really hit it off in person and I figured it would have happened the way it did. In fact I had a sort of waking dream (Day dream I guess?) A few days before he came up here to see me and I foresaw us at my Aunt's watching fireworks, heading back to the car, waiting for my father and him pulling a knife on me and threatening to kill me. I had tried to prevent this from happening upon knowing that it was going to happen but failed to do so. I never told my parents about it until years later, I was too scared. Oddly enough me and him have patched up our relationship and manage civil conversation now.

Within five months I began dating someone new. Around this time I also realized I had power as an empathic. I decided I would test this power with him and helped him gain an awareness of his own abilities. I offered up my mind to be at his disposal as a source for learning. I was able to read his emotions fairly easily and thinking about it really I'd been this way with a lot of people but hadn't noticed it for what it was.

If there is such a thing I'd say I might have powers as a sort of reverse empathic at times as well. I have times of extreme happiness or sadness and I seem to at times be able to spread it to others.

Anyway, it was around this time that I took more interest in learning as much as I could about different forms of 'magic' I for instance read tarot cards for myself daily and do readings for friends upon request. I don't offer any 'specific' information when I do it however like a lot of people seem to. I give a broad interpretation and add that tarot card readings really at their core are meant to be broad like that but also that I'm sure with time that the reasoning behind that card/s being drawn will become clear. I don't believe that just anyone can read tarot however. I believe at a person has to be fairly used to meditation and centering in order to draw cards properly.

I'm also highly interested in numerology and tend to learn as much as I can about it and it helps me find insight into my own life. I'm really not here trying to preach anything it's just me trying to get all of my thoughts out onto this page for others to consider and think about as well as sort of give me their opinions on everything.

This next point is one that is astrologically and horoscope related. I was born Oct 23rd, a day on the cusp of Scorpio and Libra. I've spent many years of my life believing myself to be Scorpio because that was pretty much always what I've been told. But being on the cusp I seem to share traits of both, both in personality and magically speaking. For instance I feel I have minor control over water as well as wind. Scorpio obviously being the water trait and Libra being the wind trait.

I know none of you know me personally but I would like to take this time to express information on the four humors which relate to four bodily fluids and each are attached to one of the four elements and have traits attached to them that relate to humans.

Choleric (Yellow bile) - fire

Sanguine (Blood) - air

Phlegmatic (Mucus and the like) - water

Melancholic (Black bile) - earth

My quick explanation of each will follow this way... A basic negative trait, and how they are said to act which gives a set of other traits.

Choleric people are hasty and somewhat foolish main vice being anger and as such a lot of times they tend to get angry easily or become violent.

Sanguine people are prone to being dishonest at times and their main vice is their indecisiveness. They tend to be friendly but a little rough around the edges at times but at the same time can be somewhat lustful --considerably more so when drunk.

Phlegmatic people are somewhat moody and their main vice is laziness and are very distrusting.

And melancholic people are depressed, their main vice is greed and they are somewhat uncaring.

In a way I'm posting all of these things for the sake of discussion and to help people to understand about my life and why I don't see myself so much as a psychic but believe that I DO have Abilities of some sort and some degree that I seek opinions on.

I feel like there was more I wanted to write but it's midnight and I can't quite remember... Oh well this should do it's pretty long.