I'm very confused. I need help. Ever since I was very little I had slight déjà vu here and there, nothing that I needed to worry about so I put it off. Except it's these past two years (ten years old until now) it's gotten stronger where I would have the déjà vu every odd week, every other week, every few days, then it's come as far as everyday in the past two weeks - four to five times a day!
But that isn't my main concern. Ever since I was very little I've been really different. When I was about three through six I had the same dream every night, never different no matter how many times I'm told it's not possible. It is. It was about this dog and would sit by my bed it had eyes so red so painful and would stare at me. I remember every detail and I'm skeptical on believing I was truly asleep. It was a demon, no one could change my mind on it and won't ever. My mom chalked it down as it being 'night terrors'. It's the only thing any doctor could come up with. The reason I'm mentioning it was because I was thinking the other day about my constant deja vu. I remember it clearly and vividly, but I've blocked it out for more that six years. I'm pretty good at blocking out painful memories. I now remember what the dog would whisper to me, though I couldn't forget it, I can remember word for word. It said, 'I'm coming for your family, your things, your life, your soul, and all the power you hold.' I remember waking up about five years old, screaming and crying for help. I still haven't gotten over it fully but I do remember him asking for my powers, and when I'm older I will would understand... It was the worst time of my life not being able to close my eyes without fear. I imagined it was silly nonsense but what would he mean by my powers?
Here is a list of things; I have felt the presence of ghosts, I have known who was calling as soon as the phone rang - not all the time but have done a lot. I have been told by the men who baptized me that God had very great things planned for me and I am very extraordinary. I can change how people feel, I know how they feel before and after they enter the room, I can change the atmosphere of everything when people are in the room when I focus - even sometimes unintentionally, I have been told even by strangers 'It's so easy to talk to you, It's like I've known you my whole life'.
Now here is more trouble. I have been coming across when I touch something specific or meditate I can almost have a vision. Yet I can't see anything, half a second is blackness but I can't physically or even in my head see it. Like a premonition is trying to come yet it can't quite make it. It takes my breath away, I gasp. I feel uneasy and frustrated on why this is all happening without explanation.
I get bad headaches and feel dizzy and can't breath, I get my gut feeling it has to do with reading minds and getting visions. Though I've never had either mind reading or premonitions.
I don't know what's happening and it's scary, does anyone know how to help or any advice besides meditation?
Ox thank you ♥
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