I've had nightmares my whole life. I now have severe insomnia. I'm sent to counseling because most people think I'm crazy. But not only do I have these nightmares, I also have nightmares (or premonitions of people dying. Close friends and family and sometimes people I don't even know) these happen months /weeks/ and even days before the deaths occur, which really sucks and hurts me mentally and emotionally.
I had dreams that my best friend was going to die in an ATV accident for months. And I was the last person to talk to him the day he died (in an ATV accident). I had warned him many times and that day when he said he was going to go ride his ATV for a while I warned him again and he brushed it off and said he's wear his helmet for me.
I passed out and had a dream of him wrecking and dying while it was actually happening. My mother called me as soon as I woke up (freaked out by the dream) and she told me he was dead and how it happened. I was sick to my stomach for weeks. I wouldn't talk to anyone for weeks other than his (my friend's) mom through e-mail.
Since then those dreams happen almost every night (whether it is about the same person for a few weeks or different people. It doesn't go away.) my mother doesn't understand that it is hard for me to sleep at night and when I do sleep either the dreams make me feel like I'm getting no rest, they wake me up over and over again throughout the night, or they don't want to LET me out of them but I feel drained when I "wake up".
I've been diagnosed with severe depression by 4 doctors and 2 councilors over the last 5 years. I don't know if I'm crazy or what, but I don't like these dreams and I don't feel like I'm in control. But I do believe there is a reason I get these nightmares (premonitions). I just don't know what it is yet. If there is ANYONE who can help me, PLEASE do. I could really use it.
Blessed Be,
-Hannah / Rhea
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