This is something nobody knows about except for one other person which was a mistake. Let me start by saying that when I was younger I had "experiences" I would see shadows they looked like people shadows but I would see them in the dark of my room when I slept. Kind of like a blacker shade on black-- tough to explain. Well they used to always watch me as a young young child 6-9, until finally it grabbed me. I was laying in bed when I felt like something was watching me. I opened my eyes to see the shadow figure right above me, I could feel it. When I opened my eyes I naturally panicked and put my arms out in front of me. To my surprise it grabbed my arms and started to shake me in my bed. Seriously probably the most terrifying thing in my life. Well I remember I freaked so bad I must of had a panick attack or something cause I felt my heart stop probably almost scared me to death.
I didn't see anymore shadow people after that oddly enough. I am not sure of the time line but I started to see other stuff as time went on. In middle school I often saw silver cloudy things occasionally. It was probably around 12 I started hearing things. This is what I am truly uncomfortable talking about. It started by me noticing a new noise, a noise beyond silence itself if you will. It's hard to explain. Anyway I started hearing voices. Sometimes saying my name sometimes other things. Well then the definite voice came. This being said he is me and he is here to protect me. I didn't think he was me because this thing speaks very well. Definitley has a silver tounge. It always makes it out like it wants to protect me but something is not right. I know it wants to isolate me.
I have been a loner growing up as have my father when he was young and this thing tells me I am meant to be that way. It says it can give me strength but only if I believe in it. Another important factor is everytime I hear this thing I feel a surge through my body, my every hair stands up and it feels good yet not good. It asks me to let it help and only twice I have done it, once unintentionally. The first time a kid was getting ready to beat the heck out of me. I was scared and I heard him ask if I needed help. I said do it and bam I blacked out. I came to with my classmates giving me a pat on the back for punching this kid in the face twice apparently and making him cry.
The second time I blacked out before a car hit me. I had no idea what happened I was walking when all of a sudden I black out and come to kneeling on the pavement. An elderly woman hit me and a lot of people were just staring at me and I ran home. They told me the car hit going like 40 and all I had was one small bruise. Apparently I landed very well, my mom saw the whole thing and was convinced an angel helped me. I am now 19 and am able to control the voice very well. He tries to convince me I need him and only him as my friend. This thing can't be me yet am I crazy? Is it so bad if it helps me? The thing does want me alone I know that much. It is smarter than me, and a much much smoother talker.
Side note I did go to the hospital because I have a horrible of history of migraines with all of this. All they could tell from the EEG is that I have an abnormally slow delta wave which is the slowest brain wave. They had no idea what it meant because not much is known about that wave apparently. I know this is a huge wall o' text, but it feels good to finally put it all out there in some way. I just really hope I am not crazy.