My nephew Braiden has recently passes away in June of this year (2011). He was killed in a car accident at 18 months old.
Braiden was in a vehicle with my brother Scott and my Aunt Missy. They were on their way to pick me up for my grandmother's funeral when they slid in gravel and flipped their car causing it to slam into a tree and for baby Braiden to be killed in his car seat in the back. The car was towed to a local impound lot, it was to me transported to Cincinnati, Ohio a week later where my brothers insurance company is. The owner of the lot was leaving work two nights after the wreck and notices the vehicles headlights were on so he went to turn them off and he also unhooked the battery, 4 hours later the lights came back on. That let me know that Braiden was letting us know he was here. At his funeral we sang his favorite song to him which was written by his aunt. For the past several months I have been hearing the song over and over and over and feeling anger when I heard it. I went to his grave and sang the song to him while cleaning up his plot and I started to feel as if he was with me and happy. Now the song in my head has stopped and when I think of him I feel joy. It was as if he wanted to be sang to and he was telling me to do it.
I feel somewhat guilty for baby Braiden's death because Scott and I were out late the night before the funeral and If we wouldn't have been I wouldn't have been where I was and they wouldn't have been coming to pick me up and Braiden would still be alive. I believe that God has a plan for all of us and that when he wants you he will take you to be with him in Heaven. I try to tell myself that nothing that I could've done would have stopped Braiden's death that it would have happened where ever he was at the time when Jesus called him, but I also feel like it connected me to him because when he was put into that car he was told where he was going and he knew he was coming to get me. The morning of the accident I woke up and before I knew about the wreck I felt like something was wrong and that I needed to turn on my phone and as soon as I did it rang with a frantic call saying that I needed to get to them now. I don't know how to interpret my feelings or premonitions. Sometimes I don't even realize I have them until it is too late. I don't know what to make of my experience with Braiden, and I am hoping for some guidance.