Firstly, I'm 17 years old, and will be 18 by August. I really need help, because I can't talk with anybody: (. Everybody will think, that I'm insane If I told them this. I really need someone to talk to.
Secondly i'm not trying to preach, but I'm a buddhist. Please don't close this after i'm telling you this. I really need someone to talk to.
Thirldy my native tounge is not English and I want to say sorry If I make mistake in english such as grammar, punctuation, etc.
As I said before I'm a buddhist, I just converted from catholic. I really really feel good by being a Buddhist, I became more peace full after converting. I can't share this experience with my parents, because my parents will think that I'm crazy because of converting, and they will always tell me to leave Buddhism. I don't want to leave Buddhism, I feel really like, i'm in "Home". I feel this is the right thing for me. Both my parents is always always complaining because, I'm meditating, and going to the temple. They think i'm half-insane because of buddhism. Ant it will only worsen the situation. I can't talk to nobody, since I grew up in a very strong christian community. All of them will think that i'm insane, luckily I found this site.
I feel more comfortable and peaceful after converting to buddhism. Yes, I do meditate, I don't know if i'm doing it right. But when i'm meditating i'm feeling something on my head. Kind of "Impulse" moving in head and I don't try to stop it.
I do get a lot de Javu. A couple months a go I was having a nap. In my dreams I saw, Boddhistava Avalokitesvara, one of the most famous deity in Buddhism, deity of compassion. I really recommend you to google it. (Again, i'm not trying to preach or convert you. Please don't close this, and this is physic experience)
In that dream, there was kind of riots, I was killed during this riot, I became a ghost (Yes a ghost). At the moment of being a ghost the only person that accompany me is only her, Boddhistava Avalokitesvara. At that moment also she was talking to me and trying to tell me something. I couldn't remember it
After that I try to consult in local spiritual forum about my dream, other person told me that I'm going to get a new "life". This may sound that I'm telling you about my spiritual journey, it's only the beginning.
My physic experience starts today. I take french class. In my french class I started to feeling other person's feeling not all but I realized that I know other's person feeling. Even though I can't verify that but I'm starting to recognize other people's suffering. The first person is my french teacher. I can feel her sadness.
Not only that my intuition becomes stronger. I got so many coincidences today. It was raining so I had to stay for more couple hours, so I was sitting in a cafe, and reading a book and when I was about to finish. My intuition said that I needed to read a few more pages, so I read the book. At the moment I was reading 3 of my friends were coming to my place (I though that they had left an hour ago, and this wouldn't happen if I don't read more pages. If I don't read, I would be leaving and we would never met) We had a great conversation. But the rain was getting worse so I said to myself "When this rain got better I would leave" And the rain got better so I left for home. In my way home I met an old friend (This wouldn't happen if I leave earlier or later) We had great conversations. I also believe that there's no such thing as coincidence. Sometimes I can guess what other people is going to say, I just realized this!
I had a lot of Deja Vu. I know this my sound too spiritualistic and you will complain that I need to go to spiritual-experiences.com instead of here. But I feel good after writing this since I can't talk to no-one. If you reach this point, I really want to thank you since you have read my story. I don't care if you don't comment or you give bad comments. What I need is to talk (or write) about my experience.