My name's karl jaxon - I'm not really sure where I should start - there's so much to question, so much I need to talk about; but I'm afraid I won't be able to cover it all. It's really difficult to think about where the beginning was in all of this - I'm almost convinced there isn't one. Ha ha. Oh, and I apologize in advance for the way that this is typed up. I have OCD with stuff like typing - this is usually the extent of it.
First off - I know I don't seem like it (not to sound cocky or anything) but I'm sixteen years old. I don't feel like it - and I've taken a couple different personality tests; turns out I'm about forty. Ha ha. That sounds like a pretty thorough introduction, so I guess I'll get on with the actual meat of the article. Oh, and if you're wondering why this article was posted at the crack of dawn, it's because I have horrible insomnia.
I'm going to let you know two things right now. One - I've experienced so many different paranormal abilities; I'm not even sure they've got a label for me. The list is pretty long, I'm not going to lie, it took me a little while just to write them all down. Two - I can't control any of them, at all. I'm a proverbial maelstrom of "powers" (if you will), which I currently don't have control over. I really do believe that everything happens for a reason though - and I personally think that the reason why I can't, is because I'm not meant to yet. I'm not sure if it's because I don't fully understand their responsibility enough to use them without using them for the wrong reasons, and corrupting myself; becoming a beacon of evil.
Speaking of evil - I'm also going to let you know right now, that I don't consider myself to be either good or evil; but a mixture of the two - and that one of my goals in life is to master the balance of both. Most of the time, I manage to stay in the middle, but it's a given that when on such a massive teeter-totter, one would find himself leaning toward one or the other occasionally. I do lean toward good a lot more frequently than I do evil. To be honest, I'm not really sure why I can hold onto both massive whirlpools of energy, without being ripped apart (metaphorically). I mean, a lot of the time, don't people have trouble being in the middle of one? I'm not sure why I'm meant to be of good and evil - but I know that when I was a child, I saw an angel, and a demon.
The angel, I remember - I was walking along the garden at my apartment complex, pulling a play-school wagon, and my brother, and cousins were with me. I was the oldest. For no reason at all, I looked up into the sky, and saw a golden, person shaped being, very far up - move along the horizon, disappearing into the sun. I asked, and no one that I was with saw it.
As for the demon - I was sleeping in my mother and father's bed. I fell asleep between them. I woke up, and raised my head over my father's back. In my kitchen (their bedroom door was open), I saw a man - very pale. He was wearing a suit of some kind - it wasn't a nice looking suit, it was dark. He had pure black eyes. He wore a hat - kind of like a bowler hat - but with a square, not a rounded, top. He had ashy colored hair, and purplish bags under his eyes. I remember that I saw him before he saw me. He was looking in the living room, and I knew that he was looking for me, but he didn't know where I was. We locked eyes for a moment, and it shook me to my core. I was filled with a fear unlike anything I've ever felt. He started to move towards me. I jammed my eyes shut, lowered my head so that I couldn't see over my father's back, and woke up. He was gone.
I digress - I guess the reason why I'm writing this; is that I've kind of run out of research sources, and I was kind of hoping that someone could tell me what kind of "thingy" (for lack of a better word) I am. Like, I provide the clues, and you guys give me a diagnosis? I don't know why I have so many different "powers" - but I think it's important I stress how truly gifted I feel to have each of them, and the feeling of importance/significance that comes along with them. I don't take any of them for granted, and I definitely don't think of anything I experience as a "curse".
Alright - first ability. "empathy". Standard definition. It usually presents itself in how if I'm having a conversation with someone (even someone I just met), I can complete their sentences. I can easily figure out what they're talking about, even if they don't really know how to express it themselves. I relate really easily to anyone that I'm around, and I've constantly had; thoughts that weren't my own, feelings that weren't my own, etc. I guess the most common phrase to accompany this power would be, "yeah, that's what I was thinking", or, "that's what I was going to say!".
Second "power". "visions"/"foresight" - these ones are a lot less common than the empathy. Although once or twice, there have been moments when I get an overload of them - like a video playing in my head, that's been put on fast forward - but I can still comprehend fully. This has only happened once or twice, and both times - the visions I had were very major. One that is forever burned into my brain - is ww3. That's a long story though, but it was so incredibly vivid, that I could feel emotions, and they were so powerful that I was brought to tears near the end. The best friend I was with, "alyra" (you'll hear more about her soon), was also reduced to tears. Sometimes - something (such as a song) will pop into my head, and I'm not sure where it comes from. Then - maybe an hour later, a day later - that same exact song (for example) will start playing.
Third point. "deep sleep occurrences" - oh man oh man - this is a major one. Uhm, where to start. Alright - my dreams, the ones that are really vivid, like that vision I told you about? Well, a lot of the time, the ones that are that epic - usually leave behind physical manifestations. For instance - recently I had a dream where I discovered I possessed the ability of telekinesis (which I feel like I might get someday. I know what you're thinking, "like he needs another one", right? Trust me, I know. Ha ha.). In order to use it, I had to concentrate really hard. Well, when I woke up - I had a major migraine. Also, I've had dreams where I was fighting with someone/something, and have woken up with bruises. Etc. I'm sure you get what I mean now.
This next one has only happened to me once - but it was powerful. I had an out of body experience - and I remember it vividly. I was sleeping at the foot of my mother's bed, I woke up - really confused, and I wasn't sure where I was. Disoriented, I rolled over, figured out that I was in her room, and began to head back to mine. I looked at the clock, saw my aunt sleeping on the couch. Everything was entirely except for the fact that I felt like I was floating. In fact, I didn't even know it was an OBE until I was talking to my aunt, (who is an incredibly light sleeper) and she said that there was no way I could've been in there and walked into my room, I was in my room the entire night, I woke up in the same position I fell asleep in. Sure enough - once I checked the spot by my mother's bed that I woke up in, in my obe - there were totes there, so I couldn't have been there.
Next one. Last week, I was hanging out with a friend in water-ville, and I went to a party with him, and his best friend. We came back to his friend's house near the crack of dawn - and fell asleep immediately. I noticed that throughout my sleep, I would fake wake up, where everything was normal - see my friend get up and walk upstairs to the bathroom, roll over, etc. I'd look at the clock, and go back to bed. Then, the minute I closed my eyes, I would wake up for real, and see that it was a few hours prior. I would go back to bed, and then have another fwu - it would end, I'd close my eyes, and really wake up. In hindsight - I think I might've been jumping back in forth, hours at a time; because everything I saw in the fwu's really happened. It was like time was non-linear for a while (if you will). Phew - that's one long paragraph, but that's it for this one. Moving on.
Enhanced kinesthetic. "abnormal reflexes". There have been times, when hanging around with my friends, when if something would drop/fall, I would grab/catch it without realizing it. At one time - I was annoying a friend of mine, and she went to kick me. I didn't see her doing it, all I know was that in a split second, I had caught her entire foot in both of my hands, and was holding her leg up in mid-air. I didn't even realize that I had done it.
"increased strength" this is a major one, and it somewhat ties into the physical manifestations of dreams section, because that's when I first experienced it. I woke up, and saw that the night-stand at the foot of my bed was missing items. One of the candles were broken, there was two holes in my wall, and that the glass bottle knickknack was gone. I sat up, and saw that there was a dent in my door, tiny broken glass pieces, and wax - on my floor. I asked my cousin (who shared the room with me) what happened, and she said that I had been talking in my sleep. In the middle of the night, I had sat up - still asleep, still talking - and my eyes were in the back of my head, so you could only see the whites.
Apparently, I had asked something to the point of, "what the hell are you doing in my room", and then, had, without warning, shot my leg out in a kick. I connected with a few things on my night-stand. I had connected with the stone water fountain that was there first - and it got lodged in the wall by one of the corner pieces, with the bottom half falling off. My candles/glass bottles got hit next - and one of each got slammed up against the door so hard, that the door was wedged shut (tightly enough it took three people to open it), the candle crumbled instantly into thousands of tiny pieces, and the glass bottle just... Vaporized. She said then, that I groaned a little, and I collapsed back into a sleep. I had absolutely no memory of this.
Another time - when I was at work, I was pushing a large, 7' cart to a greenhouse, along an un-even dirt path. Now, normally, I am a pretty strong guy. This was a lot of work though, because aside from how much the cart weighed on its own, there was a large amount of soil in the cart. Anyways, I was going over a hill, and one of the wheels hit a rock, bouncing off the path. It started to tip. I let go of the end I was pushing, and ran around the side it was tipping on. I went to hold it up, and my arms almost buckled entirely. I yelled, and gritted my teeth together. I knew that if I didn't hold this up somehow - I was going to fall down into the trench in the hill - and this was going to fall on top of me. I jammed my eyes shut, concentrated, and pushed. I felt a well of strength pouring into my arms, and suddenly it felt like I was pushing a grocery cart. I pushed more, and the wheels started to turn, in a matter of seconds, I had it back on track - as a co-worker ran over to help me. After I was safe, I felt kind of dizzy, and a little amazed - understandably. Ha ha. That's it for this section.
Last ability. "electro-kinesis". This is the most recent I have developed. It's not very strong yet - but it shows constantly. When I'm in the shower - the radio that's in there constantly fluctuates on the strength of the signal, all depending on how I'm moving. It'll go static, I'll step closer to fix it, and it'll be crystal clear. I'll be moving around in the shower and it'll do the same thing. It's even happened in work when if the static starts to come on, I'll raise my hand to it, and it'll be fine. If I drop it - static. The electricity has started to flicker all through my house. At one point - on my way to pick up my best friend alyra's mother (who's car had broken down, and wouldn't start) - I got out of the car to move stuff out of the back seat so she could get in, and the minute I set foot on the tar, her car started up. She'd been trying for about half an hour. I've always felt a strong connection/fascination to the wind, and thunderstorms - and I think this might explain why.
Phew. For all of you that have made it all the way down here - I'm impressed. I've been writing this for over two hours now, I'm not sure how long it took you to get to this point. I really do appreciate it though - and any help you might be able to give me on the subject. This part, is just feelings, etc. That I have about all of this.
I feel like I have a very significant part in the ww3 that's about to come - I'm guessing 2012. I don't mean to sound like I think I'm better than any of those reading this - that's definitely not the case. It's just something that's ingrained in my head - one of the things I kind of "know, but don't know-know". I see it as a different kind of war, not one with guns and face paint. A war of the souls if you will. I think you all can agree that the world we're living in is in a sorry state, as is humanity on a whole. Greed, corruption, sloth, gluttony, etc. The way everything is set up now - it's like in order to get ahead in life, you have to be evil. It's a world where people care more about the labels on their clothes, and how many they can own - than the well-being of their fellow man. A world where a woman in new york can buy a $7,000 dress, and a family in a third world country goes another week without food. A world where the rich get richer, and the poor are dying. We're in dire need of a shift in consciousness, a world-wide awakening of sorts, y'know?
I think you guys can see what I'm talking about - you don't even have to look too hard. I feel like (and have substantial near death experiences to prove it) I'm not going to die, and are therefore safe from it - until the time comes when I have to fulfill my destiny, and the part that I'm meant to play in 2012. I feel like the way I'm going to die - is sacrificing myself in order to destroy the force of evil waiting on the horizon, to try and prevent the evolution in consciousness of humanity. I feel like I'm one of the three people who're going to be a key force of good in 2012. Myself - the guardian. Alyra (my best friend) - the healer, and the third person is the missing piece. I feel like once we find them, I'll be able to control all of this, and each of us will reach our full potential through each other. A "power of three" kind of thing, if you would. I feel like all of it is locked deep within my mind, in my subconscious - everything I've experienced and researched speaks to that conclusion.
A lot of the time, I feel like two different people. One - the teenager, the person I am in this life. Two - the old soul, who's lived countless lives before this one, who all of these powers belong to, and who knows everything about them and what's to come. Y'know what I mean? I feel like my best friend and I have our own sign, "the butterfly" - and when we/I/she sees it, it means that we're where we need to be at that given moment, we're on the right path. I feel like we have our own sign because our destiny is major, really different, crucial. Both of our families have a long history of psychic experiences, I think it's because the kind of power we need to have in order to do what we're meant to do, can only be built up over generations, collected and passed from one person to the next, until it got to us.
That's pretty much it. Please, help me out?