Hello, everyone, I am Tanya. I want to start by telling a little about myself. I really didn't start noticing anything special until my sister passed away about 3 years ago. I was always taught to believe that psychics and mediums were evil, and inspired by demons. However, since things have been happening to me (they happened before, I just didn't put it together until my sister passed away) and I believe in God, and consider myself a christian woman, and I'm not evil and I don't seek after demons for visions etc. That being said let's move on shall we?
I first started noticing the voices, and I have a problem saying that because I feel like a schizophrenic when I do, but it isn't voices telling me to do any thing, or telling me I'm stupid, or making much sense at all with anything, it is just all of a sudden I will hear 'hey', or 'Tanya', feel a shove, a nudge, and once even a gentle smack on the forehead, as if telling me 'duh', and these things happen at least 1-2 times a week if not more.
I have never had an actual conversation, because when I jolt from the noise or the nudge, it stops. I feel the weight of someone sit next to me, many many times, whether on the bed or couch, I feel someone move my arm or the blankets if I'm in bed, but never in a threatening manner. When I first started looking at it as 'different', instead of brushing it off as my imagination, it was happening nearly every night, and I thought my house was haunted or something. My dog saw things also but was never fierce-acting. We moved, and moved again, and everywhere we go I experience the same things.
After the death of my sister, a couple of years passed, and I was raising her 3 girls, 2 of them had moved in with their fathers, and I just had the one 15 year old left. For a long time I felt 'pestered' or pushed by something or someone (I think my sister) to give messages to the 15 year old that lived with me, (I will call her Kay) but was too afraid to say anything to her because for one I didn't want to upset her, and for another I didn't want her to think I was pulling her leg or trying to get attention. It took a long time for me to sit her down and actually explain what had been going on. Well I told her the things I felt urged to tell her, and ended up telling her things I wouldn't have known, and hit everything right on. Now I'm 32 years old, and it seems as if I would have noticed this behaviour before.
Another thing that happens a lot is the knowledge of someone being emotional one way or another about me or someone close to me. Like if someone has a crush, or someone is mad, or if someone doesn't like someone else. They will show no signs of the like/dislike/anger and I will know. I tell my husband all the time about 'this person does not like me' and he will say, 'oh you are just being over sensitive' and I will say 'no I'm not, I know it. I don't know how, I just do' and later (usually not more than a month) we will always find out that I was right. I don't like to say I'm never wrong, but the intuition thing, I am usually right, and don't remember ever being wrong about that part.
I have had other experiences with ghosts/spirits, I'm not going to write a book here, but it has been fascinating me lately and want to know if I am 'gifted' or lucky, if I have abilities, or is this normal? If it is a gift or ability, how can I develop it and strengthen it to its potential? Thank you all in advance, tanya