I am 35 years old and the mother of 5 children ages range from 20-13. I am writing to see if anyone can explain why I have this real vivid images in my head (more than once) and also dreams. It's almost as if I'm watching a movie.
So 2013 I was in a relationship with a guy we had been in a relationship for like 3 years and all of a sudden I start having these dreams of death for a whole week and I told him about it and he just shrugs it off, he said "oh it's just bad dreams" but I swear I felt the grief in those dreams. I kept seeing a shadow in the entrance of my house. I was really scared because it felt so real. Well, after a week of having those experiences he had an accident and passed away. I didn't understand why I had those experiences leading up to his death and I honestly still to this day don't understand.
Also, in 2016 I told my son now 20 years old that I didn't want him to hang around some friends that he had. The reason for me telling him that was because I was sitting in my living room one day and I had this vision again it was like a movie playing in my head that he was arriving where his friends were and there was some type of argument and that there was a shooting and he ended up shot. I told him exactly what I saw in this vision and exactly what I saw in this vision, actually happened the same way. My son got shot on his side and went up in an angle and it destroyed some organs and actually went through his heart making two holes in his heart. He is alive by the grace of God. My son always tells me that I am at fault because I wished bad on him. My kids are always on me about not saying any visions that I have because there has been many many more things that I say because I see them in my head and they come true. I hate the fact that when I say something it comes true.
Another time was when I was by myself in the car and I was approaching a traffic light at speed limit (35 mph) it was green for me so I could keep going and all of a sudden in my mind I thought imagine if someone runs the red light and slams into me. As that went through my mind something told me to slow down and as I was slowing down a driver ran the red light and I nearly died that's how scared I was at that moment I was shaking I had to pull over to gather my thoughts trying to understand what had just happened. I didn't understand why all of a sudden I had that random thought and it actually happened. I think about it now as I'm writing and its still like "wooow" Like I said I have many many more experiences like this and I would love to share with everyone. But, can someone help me understand what does all this mean.