Not sure what to make of a lot of things in life, I guess that's why it exists? But I'm one who has asks a lot of question. In general, but more so about those that can't really be answered for sure. My experiences can be counted on one hand, but sometimes it would seem a lot more subtle answers lie within the big questions, and maybe it's all about learning to listen? I dunno, but I do have a couple of things I'd like to share, and maybe an answer if there's is one.
About 10 years ago, I had 2 out of body experiences. And I can say without a doubt, that they are something of significance, and most certainly deserve further, serious study. I'm a very grounded and rational sort of person who won't believe something simply because someone took the time to write it. (I won't disbelieve automatically either) but it usually takes some convincing with me. I don't talk about them with anyone as it would seem nearly everyone won't even listen, or rationalize them simply as dreams. WITHOUT doubt, they are not! I know the difference! And anyone else who has had the good fortune of being OOB, would also certainly agree. I also believe in what people on here refer to as "Spirit guides" or whatever. I believe that they are the answer, for when something just feels right. When a decision you've made for no apparent real or logical reason, I believe they've influenced you. And I also believe they are the key to happiness here on earth. If we were able to listen to them more often, instead of all the crap that goes on in front of our eyes and other senses, in the real world, then I think personal happiness would be much more achievable. I've read about people stating that we simply need to ask for their help, in a relaxed state, and we can have direct contact. Possibly. Now, I've been asking for such help for the past few nights after reading that, and 2 nights ago, in that state where you're neither awake or asleep I felt someone tap me 3 times on my foot. I am single, there is no one in the bed next to me. There was no-one in my room as it was 3 maybe 4am and my door was closed as I had left it. It caused me to wake up to full attention, and there was absolutely no one there! I had been consciously asking for their help or guidance in the time leading into sleep, but was in full REM sleep as it happened, or beginning to wake as stated. It was odd! I have no idea what or who it was, but it most definitely happened and I was not simply dreaming. But I also have no idea what to make of it. Whether or not it actually means anything or simply someone or something trying to just let me know that they're there. I've been having some general life troubles lately. And I've needed some answers, but I also wonder if it's simply myself letting myself believe. But I also believe that I know the difference between belief, and reality. And it would seem to be the latter.
Also, I HATE confrontation. I'm not sure I'd put it down to cowardess, but I simply hate the thought of offending people, and other people doing the same to others. I feel very uncomfortable when arguments are about to present themselves, and often suffer myself in order to keep the peace. I hate that I do this, because it would seem to get me nowhere but at the same time, the feeling can be overwhelming. It may just be my nature, but I began to ask questions after reading about empaths, and simply dismissed as a "no, it can't be that" as it isn't like someone whispers to me or anything silly, more of just feeling. Which would seem to me, hard to explain to others. But with so many IGNORANT people in this world, who seem to just take, take and take, with no appearance of remorse or compassion, I wonder if I am just a little more sensitive to such emotions. Whether or not I'm being influenced indirectly. Or maybe those selfish people are just ignorant. Maybe it's just not their fault. I choose my friends VERY carefully, and you'll find genuinely good, well natured people, who, if have problems, manage to keep them in control. But I also seem to attract, emotionally damaged people, and it's driving me insane (not literally). But I lock myself away on most social occasions to avoid having to sort people problems out. Why do I feel the need to help everyone. I hate it, and then consequently feel like a bad person for avoiding social contact.
Just some thoughts, that I would never talk about with anyone I know, but there seems to be some very open minded people in here, with a lot more knowledge and experience than myself. If anyone has any thoughts of their own on the matters, I'd love to hear them:)