Sometimes during the early morning hours (usually after 3:30am) I'll be awake and I start to hear a zapping sound which reminds me of Jacobs Ladder - that thing you see in Frankenstein movies with the lightning bolts running up the pole with electricity zapping- (that's the sound that I hear).
I try to ignore it and go to sleep. If the static/zapping gets strong enough, it seems to "open up" and a voice starts talking to me. This has happened periodically for almost two years now. I never heard the "voice" until maybe six months after the zapping started. Up to that point, I thought we had a problem with our table fan except nobody else could hear that noise!
The first time I heard it (the voice) was one morning just before 6am (May 2011). Much of what "he" said was mumbled. I heard words like "Manhattan." and other mumbled sentences or random words. The mumbling went on for about a minute and then, I very clearly heard "I have so much I'm supposed to tell you" and he called me by name.
It scared the holy heck out of me! I could literally "feel" this "entity" standing right there in the room somewhere near the door. His voice faded away and I heard nothing else. When my son woke up just minutes later, I told him about it. His reaction: "Well that explains what I thought I just saw in the hallway!" He described a rather large man in a white robe. My son is 25 - a stock broker just out of college. He said that he came out of his room, looked to the right, saw "something," got "a little freaked" looked away, and looked back and it was gone.
My husband was going to be in Manhattan within a few days and the fact that the one word I heard was "Manhattan" worried me. Nothing happened. Hubby returned safely.
After that day, I hear nothing until several months later (August 2011). Same thing. I'm tossing and turning and trying to fall asleep. It's 3:30am. The static starts. I freak. I try to calm down, breathe, meditate. Suddenly, right next to my head, floating above me, I hear him say my name and ask me "are you awake?" Then he goes on and basically reminds me that life is short and that my hubby travels a lot, and that when he is with me, we need to make the very best of our time together - spend every moment appreciating the time we have together.
Now, I consider myself a pretty rational person. I'm in the health care field. I'm older, educated, but this is a totally new experience to me and let me tell you, I've got a bit of anxiety - no - make that a ton of anxiety over this whole new experience!
So, I find myself having a panic attack (again, something I've NEVER had). I call the doc. They run tests. I'm fine! Sure. I'm glad they think so.
How do you tell people that you're hearing voices and they're not coming from your head? People REALLY look at you funny.
So - over time, I think this spirit's name is Sam. I've seen a medium who tells me he's a nature spirit that accidentally got attached to me. Hm. Not sure about that. Could be I guess. I'm hearing voices, so anything is possible at this juncture!
I'm still just as frightened every time I hear that zapping. It has mostly occurred in the early morning hours in my bedroom, but one afternoon, I took a nap in the living room and I had an encounter right in the middle of the day!
It seems I have to be in a very relaxed state (to begin with at least). It helps if Sam has some type of energy source to work with such as a fan that is working nearby. Not sure why. Maybe it takes a lot of energy to speak. He didn't seem to need it that afternoon though.
The latest was yesterday morning. Sam told me he was pissed at the voices! How ironic! I'm assuming he was referring to a telephone conversation I had a few days earlier with a vendor. That conversation didn't go well. She was yelling and screaming at me and threatened to try to get me fired. I started lecturing her. It wasn't pretty.
I'm trying to figure out how not to be scared. I'm trying to figure out if I should trust this invisible entity. Is he good or evil? I know he seems good, but when somebody tells you "I have so much I'm supposed to tell you," there may be things we should not know or are not meant to know. It could be a devil's ploy. That's what makes me nervous. When the zapping starts I always pray to be surrounded in the white light of Jesus Christ and ask to be kept safe in the name of Jesus Christ.
What I have read about "true" spirit guides is that they tell you up front who they are and what their purpose is. This spirit did not do that. OR - I just never heard it because so many times what I hear is mumbled and I can't understand what the heck this spirit is saying!
Any comments? Suggestions? Do I relax and open up and Trust?
Thanks all comments would be greatly appreciated