My mother use to tell me about ghosts she had seen or weird things that would happen to her when she was young. Now though, my mother is heavly medicated for depression and other. She told me that our family had a history of "being more sensitive than other people." She did not further elaborate.
Around the ages of 10-13 (this is me we are talking about now) I started having dreams about things that would happen the next day or in the following week. I started. I'm not sure; almost like I could "feel" other peoples emotions. And it weighed me down. One day I was sitting watching TV when I saw these balls of light! They were bright and almost acted like bugs, crawling around my walls. I blinked a couple of times and pinched myself, wondering the while if I needed to go to the doctor. I got scared and covered my face with a pillow, and when I went to look again, the balls of light were gone.
I was curious if maybe I had some sort of "ability," so I started to read a book called "Solitary Witch" (by Silver RavenWolf). So of the stuff I just kind of thought was bogus! But other things I tried. Spells and such, which did seem to affect my daily life. This scared me and I stopped at once (the book is currently in the back of my closet collecting dust).
I now take the same medication as my mother for depression and anxiety. A few months ago I decided that I didn't want to be on the medication anymore and weaned myself (with doctors help) off of the meds. The shiny little balls of light came back! But now they are smaller and zoom around over head. They don't seem like "eye floaters" you know, the little things you see at the corners of your eyes.
Currently I am on my meds because of the "weight" I talked about earlier.
I am wondering if I am just a little crazy, or if it's something else? If it is I would like to know how to strengthen my "abilities" (?) (interested in aura's and have tried to see some with little success... More of a feeling of them), or if I should just talk to my doctor and shrink more?