I am posting this, because I have been forced to explore the nature of what I am experience while awake, and what I am experiencing spiritually. For me, the line between my conscious experiences and my unconscious experiences has been blurred. But, I know that I am never "imagining" things. I don't consider myself to be a fabricator. I have grown good at pointing out "the lie"--esp. The ones I tell myself. Now, what I am telling you probably began when my grandmother died. My father died a year later. I was 21 at the time. I saw two shadow people, short figures, and heard a whispering voice ask me if he could stay with me. I said NO. Which, I still mean.
I ended up meeting a man who seemed to have psychic abilities--well I know that he does--as if he hears thoughts. I felt quite close to this man, believing him to be my twin soul. Now, he was not in the position to communicate with me sexually. At the same time, he began dating a woman who looks quite like me. I am not the kind to be jealous outwardly. I fought my jealousy. But I began to see him around my home; I know that he was following me. Now, this man, begins to reverse his behaviour towards me. He is no longer "friendly" so to speak. I try to ask him why he was doing this, and he pretends not to know what I am saying. In one conversation, his eyes turned black. I was completely awake when I saw this. NO joke. Now, I have been forced to remain strong and fight through my fear. I am not a child. I grew very afraid of this man. It was as though he was deliberately trying to hurt me.
And then, the crazy started. I began to feel stinging sensations on my skin. I began to experience severe panic attacks--as if I have PTSD. I lost sleep for 2 weeks. I thought he was trying to kill me. I believe that this was an exaggeration on the conscious level, but spiritually, I feel as if he is very dangerous. I do not want to EVER meet/see this man, again. His EYES turned black. Is this possible? Well since then, I have been experiencing "spiritual attacks" and electric impulses, static in my ears. I do still get anxiety, where my heart begins to shudder at night. I feel tortured at times, but I am getting stronger. I know that I am safe. I just will not go near that man again.
So what is he? The devil? Well--I don't believe in the devil, per se, but I do believe in very black souls. I prayed every night, when I was young for happiness. This man was a trigger, I know that, forcing me to see that I had to find my happiness within--nurture it, myself. And if I know that someone is no good in my gut, then I will not talk myself into thinking that I am wrong. I have learned to trust my senses--they are powerful. I believe in kindness, always will. I pray for him. All we need is love, here. That's it. This was a guided experience. I, thankfully, have been kept away from this man, until I know that I never WANT to go near him, again.
If anyone else has had a strong psychic connection with your opposite, as in, you feel that you had to meet the worst person that you could ever meet so that you could grow as a psychic, I would love to hear about it.