My son's dad was killed a few months ago. We grew up together and spent over 10 years together. He was my first love and I was his. All day everyday we were together. From the time I was 11 until I was 23 he was the only one I was with. We had a really strong bond. Things didn't work out between us, but we have always been good friends. My son with him was his only child.
We had an argument and at the time of his death we were mad with each other and weren't even speaking. That has really been bothering me a lot. The fact that we weren't speaking. Right after his funeral strange things started happening. I would be in my bed at night on my way to sleep. And my bedroom door would fly open like someone had walked into the room and no one would be there. I would get up and close the door and it would fly right back open. I was watching t.v in the living room one day talking and a water bottle that was sitting on the t.v. Stand flew across the room like somebody threw it.
Now, I can hear him talking to me just as plain as if he was sitting right next to me. I can sense when he is near me because all of a sudden a chill will come over me and I start smiling thinking about him. I can also feel him playing in my hair and touching me. When I lay in the bed at night sometimes, I can feel him wrap his arms around me. Am I losing my mind or is this really happening? I mean I thought that he had moved on since we hadn't been together in so long, so why would he be around me like this now. He talks to me about our son, our past, his mistakes, and I think I'm losing it. It's like we're closer now than we ever were. I just don't get it. I can't really talk to anyone around me about this because they'll think I'm losing my mind too.