Recently I have started living a more spiritual lifestyle. By that I mean, I have been meditating, letting go of negativity, and focusing on staying positive and bringing that energy into my life. I am a single mom of two small kids and the goal is to live a more calm and stress-free life of my own. I have always been sensitive to others feelings and emotions, sometimes so much so that I couldn't distinguish their feelings from my own. I can walk into a room and be able to tell what is going on with a person based on their emotions. This ability has been good at times because I have been able to help people with it. It has also caused a great deal of stress in my life. Since I began meditating and trying to shield the negative away from me, I have felt like a whole new person. I have been so much calmer and more grounded. This new, happier lifestyle is also coming with some experiences I am confused about and I am hoping that someone can help clarify some things for me.
Last night I was woken up by someone shouting my name at the top of their lungs... Inside my head. It was so loud, my ears were actually ringing. I have never felt anything like that before. I have experienced premonitions in dreams and have seen deceased family members through them before but not when I was in a deep sleep. The few times that I have had any psychic experiences during the night were right before I fell asleep. I saw my grandmother the night she died, telling me goodbye a few years ago. When I was about 10 years old I had a vision of my uncle going missing and dying. At the time no one knew he was missing. When I told my mom about it she told me my uncle was fine. Then she tried to call him and that lead to the family realizing that yes, he was missing and eventually finding him deceased.
I have had experiences of seeing spirits as well. There was a period during my teenage years where a day didn't go by where I didn't see, hear, or feel a spirit. It stopped when I had a particular nasty spirit terrorize me. The harassment went on for months until a friend of mine came to stay the night with me. During the middle of the night I felt her fear, and woke up from it. The spirit was terrorizing her in her sleep. I don't know how I knew this, I just did. This, more than anything it had ever done to me ticked me off and I basically just went mentally ballistic on it. I mentally berated it and told it to leave. I was so angry I think I blocked that part of me because I rarely experienced a spirit after that.
When I heard this woman shouting my name, I associated that with a family member and something being terribly wrong. I immediately got up and checked on my kids. When I found that they were sleeping peacefully I checked my whole house and then I called and checked on every female in my family. The feeling I got when I woke up was that I HAD to be awake. I HAD to get up and check on everyone and make sure the house was locked up. It was a desperate voice. The message was get up right now something is wrong. I am confused because everyone was and is fine. Did I just associate this voice with something bad because of my past experiences or should I be on guard? Is it possible that because of my meditation I am somehow opening up those channels that connect with spirits and that is what was going on?