I believe that I have been experiencing a strong influence of my past tribes. Some people call it Karma.
From my early childhood on I had lack of energy (in particularly in my arms and back). Tiredness and hyper-somnolence (to live to sleep). As a teenager I was becoming aware of the issue and my limitations. In particular, I started running in the morning and doing power lifting to boost my energy, but it lasted an hour only. The doctors did several tests (e.g. Sleep lab, MRT, X-Ray etc.) and said that e.g. My back problem was of psychosomatic nature only.
Despite of my enormous efforts to change or improve any events in my life,
Having multiple contingency plans,
Everything remained still unchanged. In other words something always comes up. Mostly there is no "outcome". 200%-300% of effort produce 5%-10% improvement. For my analytical mind it is against common sense! This makes me think I am bewitched. I do not necessary believe in the conspiracy theories, but I failed to understand and explain the underlying reasons.
After having sent 1000+ of resumes I have failed to get a job for more than 3 years (I had a burned out on one, couldn't not hold on another one for "some" reasons after having chased the company for more than 2 years). The most recent psychic told me that
My misfortune has to do with my tribes' karma.
Apparently the life I live is not mine, is not that I want.
Has anybody witnessed anything like that? Please share! Thank you.
P.S. I apologize for my poor English, I am not a native speaker.