Before I start to share my experience with you, I want to note that I am in control over my powers. It's not perfect, as both my spirit and my body is growing, but I manage it well enough that I can stop myself from seeing things I don't want to see, feeling emotions that I don't want to feel or not use my spiritual powers unintentionally.
The thing is lately, I realize there is a force inside of me that seems to have an effect of repulsion against animals and humans. The animals stay clear of my path, it's not because they are afraid of my physical self but I think my spiritual self.
My brother's friend owns a dog and his family has had him for at least 2 years so I don't think he would avoid any human in genera since he's not afraid of my brother nor my parents. I was meeting them after school to pick up my brother from his friend's apartment when the dog came to me. As I had mentioned, he was friendly to almost everyone. So at first he tried to negotiate with me for a little less than 15 seconds, then he began to turn away, avoiding me as much as possible.
That was my first experience of this repulsion; and ever since, things started getting worse every day, every week, and every month.
And just recently, my friends seem to be isolating me. Automatically, I had thought it was the cause of my personality or my attitude towards them. But soon, I recognized the power of isolation in me with quite a bit of evidence, personal evidence.
It's not like I'm trying to deny my abilities, but I'm starting to feel a little scared. Nowadays, I have to keep changing friendship groups and it's not a good thing because then I would have to learn to settle in quickly and make new bonds - which I definitely am not good at.
I'm scared to face my old friends because they seem to be avoiding me.
My new friends don't think there's something wrong with me, but from their natural behavior, they stand just a little bit further away from me despite their normal expressions and emotions - I can read and feel others emotions accurately - and that they don't know about my abilities.
I know me and my powers are growing, but I want to know what this power is. And if you do know, I'd appreciate some help figuring out what to do.