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The Thing

 

My name is Mary, and I'm writing my second story here because although I've read many people's stories about being confused about what they are, I don't belong in any of the categories that I've read about.

Although I'm not really sure about what I am, I was always more mature than other people. I always wondered and thought it was weird for other people to discriminate others for their looks and personalities, whereas I just liked every one (and if I didn't like them, it didn't mean I disliked them!) I had no discrimination whatever towards other people. When I was in 6th grade, I tried several things to make the world (at least my school, anyway) a better place, but failed continuously because my classmates just wouldn't understand. My frustration of the "corruption" most people were reached its peak, and then, BOOM! I became a misanthrope, and began to dislike general people due to "evil."

However, this was only a minor thing, compared to what I'm going through now. After shunning away other people for quite a long time, I finally managed to "fit in," and tolerate the society I was in a little. For awhile, I was quite happy, in a shallow way (I just couldn't feel happy, but now, I'm cautiously trying out happiness).

Then, the "thing" came into my life. In my consciousness, I divided myself into the "human" part that was in some ways corrupt but happy, and the "thing," that was never happy, even dangerous maybe. This "thing" just kicked in sometimes in my regular life, and I would change to a whole new person! I would grab people, and ask them befuddling questions, like, "Why do you live?" "Do you know You?" "Who are you inside your mind?" I would seriously ponder and feel disgust for the humans (which I felt was lower than me in intelligence of KNOWING-it's not related to human activities, information, etc.) and frustrated that I was born on Earth with humans! The strange thing was, when the "thing" kicked in, the human side was at the back of my head, pleading it to stop! (But, as I continue to live, the "thing" and the human side are becoming more and more interconnected, and hard to separate.) Whatever the "thing" is, it's a part of me, painful it may be. Nowadays, I get this sudden urge to leave civilization, this WORLD, and find who I really am (which is, of course why I'm posting this article)

What is the "thing?" Also, why can't I know about peoples very well when I look at them anymore? WHAT AM I? (Although I'm not sure if this is the proper article to post up here, I had nowhere else to ask...)

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guest3297588 (guest)
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10 years ago (2009-10-02)
P.S.
But other characterisitics, such as feeling alone, uninterested in "human activities," and having a true purpose in life! (which, I'm trying desperately to find!)
guest3297588 (guest)
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10 years ago (2009-10-02)
Well, maybe I could be a star child, but I don't exactly "fit in" to the general aspect of star children; I don't have large eyes, low body temperature, or great pyschic powers (I sometimes see things in my dreams, but even this is disappearing) But is it just me, that feels as if my other part is dying as I become socialized? 😕
Patricia (4 stories) (8 posts)
 
10 years ago (2009-10-02)
Mary...accept yourself...do not fight against who you are and what you feel. No matter if you feel "different" from others. It is perhaps simply true that you are. If you continue to question yourself then you will remain in confusion and chaos. Calm down and breathe deeply and listen to your inner voice which speaks to you. I also suggest that you do not judge others, accept them for who they are also. Do not elevate your sense of self for it is meant to mislead you. If you are a star child, as they call it, you have purpose and with maturity and acceptance, you will come to know it. Do not present yourself as strange and anti-social for your separateness will create loneliness, and you are not alone. And lastly...do not refer to this feeling as "the thing"...it is you and you are a beautiful and wonderfully made creature. I only ask that you resist all thoughts that would harm others and yourself...do not let opportunistic evil use you. Be strong and proud. You have purpose...believe it. ❤
guest3297588 (guest)
 
10 years ago (2009-10-01)
Thank you for your advice! I'll try to meditate, and wait until I remember who I was... 😊
cyopathic (5 stories) (513 posts)
 
10 years ago (2009-10-01)
Well I am in no mood for riddles of children who stay all day at a coffe shack feeling misunderstood but well I guess I am to late but Korea that is not the place to be doing that in running up to people and asking questions. But the "thing" sounds like somebody dosent understand something and is getting very frustrated. But also meditate if you are having this trouble.
Tessalovesmusic (3 stories) (72 posts)
 
10 years ago (2009-09-30)
well, I have heard of something similar to this, Its seems far fetched and some, well most people don't believe in this but you could be a star child, I don't know the specifics but something to help you would be moldivite, If you are a star child it calms you down and helps you stay grounded on earth. Moldivite is a dark green glass that was formed from a asteroid that hit earth thousands of years ago. Its a rare glass that is semi expensive but well worth it if these are the problems your having. You can look them up online for more information, But if your other side still thinks you should go find where you belong, then go find it.

Blessed be,
Tessa ❤
AnneV (4 stories) (1037 posts) mod
 
10 years ago (2009-09-30)
There are some of us that are new to the earth/human experience. We are only here for this one lifetime to help in current conditions and upcoming changes. You sound like one of these beings. To come here first of all implies that you were unconditional in your love at some level to come to such an undeveloped plane of existence. You did this probably as much for the love of the planet as you did for her occupants.

However, as you know now, you're not yet conscious to your true purpose here so you're watching the dog and pony show wondering why in the hell you'd come to such a marvel of undeveloped creatures who kill, rape, warmonger and destroy not only the planet but themselves. Shocking for any developed soul.

You will feel this way until you start to remember on a conscious level why you are here. Then you'll look at humans as beings that need your help in becoming more aware of themselves and what is happening, and to help them also wake up. I guess you can call yourself the proverbial 'star seed'. A star seed is not better, just further developed and sometimes willing to come back and help others. In the end, that's what being developed is about; self-sacrifice, tolerance, unconditional love, and so on.

If you haven't already, you'll start to dream of your true home, of "that other place" that is not here. But remember that you chose to come here, so for the time-being, you'll have to let that go until you're done with this place. It could be sooner than you realize to maximize your time here and stay focused in the moment.

Anne

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