First, I am 28 years old, a male, and for most of my life I have not considered myself particularly gifted or even special. I know there are people out there that can do things that I would consider spectacular and amazing. I never believed I was one of those people. In the last year I have been learning things about myself I would have never considered even possible in myself.
It started ironically enough when I met a girl, again. When I knew her before I was not really paying her any attention, but now things have changed, I had recently left my wife and was enjoying being single. Then she was there. Here's where things take an interesting turn for me.
In my entire life I had always considered myself lucky and a very good judge of character. With a handshake I could normally understand a person very well. I never gave it a thought. Examples being I could seem to feel if they were interested in helping me, or if they were interested in crossing me or my interests. Primed with this knowledge I could then tailor further interactions accordingly. Further I have always been a hunch player, I would get a gut feeling and work it, never paying attention to what I was doing on anything more then what I considered a basic level.
Now back to this girl. We were sitting together talking when I happened to touch her hand. I am not sure how to describe what happened next but I will try here; suddenly I had more then a hunch as to what was happening in her head. It was like I could suddenly feel everything, and almost hear in my mind what was in her mind. Naturally I jerked my hand away, and it was all gone. I let time go by somehow justifying in my head that I could not have had happen what just happened. I continued to convince myself, until I could no longer convince myself. As I am explaining I never considered myself special in any way. The more time I spent near this women the more I couldn't ignore what was happening to me. So I did what I normally would never consider doing, I asked my sister.
My sister explained something rather interesting to me. She told me that what is happening is not impossible but common, especially in my family, however normally it's the girls that grow up 'talented'. She continued to explain that nearly all the girls inherit these 'talents' from birth.
So this brings me here, normally I have no interest in posting about myself anywhere, but I have a question. Up until tonight I have never experienced anything that I would consider unmanageable. It's excellent that I can understand a person's motives as well as they can with a handshake. Although I may not explain it, I have been doing it all my life so I am used to it. But tonight I looked into a mirror, and I could see me, yeah big deal right? It is an interesting deal when I could see me, and suddenly I could see me from another perspective. It was like I could see me, then I could 'feel' me from the outside in. A similar sensation to what I feel when I am shaking a persons hand but from ME. It isn't that I didn't like what I saw, I know who I am, just a bit weirded out by seeing myself from that 'angle' if you will.
My question should read like this: I have no idea what to do with this, and should I go on doing nothing about it, or should is there something I should be doing with this talent. Occasionally with very strong people it is shocking, almost painful, but more often comes off as a hunch or gut feeling. Is there a direction I can go with this? Or should I continue to do nothing?