This is kind of a long choppy history, so please try to follow. As long as I can remember I have been very keen to others emotions. I can read people & tell if I will like them almost immediately. People are often drawn to me & have told me they do not understand why. As a young child it was discovered that I had a brain tumor, which in turn, at nine years old, caused me to become unresponsive & die for almost 3 minutes. It was after waking from the 2 week coma, I realized, that my life was going to be very different.
My childhood home became eerie. I felt like it was haunted. My parents wrote it off as almost ptsd. My family decided to move. The next home was no different & the next & the next, etc. As a teen I began dating someone that had a mother go missing when he was a young child. I was drawn to his energy for some strange reason. This is when the dreams became even more vivid. As strange as it sounds, it was almost like his mother brought us together, so she can finally rest.
As an adult I have met many people that say there is something about me that they can not figure out. And recently people have felt what has been described as electricity coming from my hands & it almost feels like spirits are trying to speak to me. I feel crazy.
Over the past winter I had randomly met someone that started the conversation not with a greeting but with "use your gift, don't fear it, because you're going to lose it". As far as the spirits go, the other day I kept having this strange thought that a friend of mine had told a "ghost" in her home to go away because she was scared. It was almost like this thought wouldn't get out of my head until I had text her "weird random question. Did you tell your house ghost that mimics all those voices to go away?" she called me in hysterics asking how I would know that. HOW DID I KNOW THAT?
I need someone to tell me what I am. I am so confused. I feel almost like people must think I watch too much television, but the only thing I watch on tv is the news & adult swim!
If this is a gift/curse I need someone who understands to help me figure out who & what I am.