Rootworker

Before I tell you what going on, to maybe try and help you out, I'll tell you a little about myself. I'm fifteen am very creative (I've published a book, write, draw, write poetry, play guitar, etc.) and have a wild imagination. My dreams have always been amazingly vivid, colorful, and sometimes too real. My childhood days were filled with abuse, poverty, and were quite lonely seeing how there were no other children around and mom and dad were always busy doing something. We moved around a lot, from state to state, leaving life after life behind. My dad was gone at work a lot, and even more so now. My parent's marriage has always been rough and they nearly divorced once. I've always been expected to not do anything less than perfect. An enormous amount of responsibility was shoved onto me at a very early age, and I have a younger brother that is a little slower than most people. My great-grandmother on my mom's side was a witch, no lie, and me, my mother, grandmother, and various other relatives have experimented in Wicca or voodoo religions or practice it. The three of us all have abilities. Though, mine are the strongest of the three of us.

Now, I've always been able to hear, see, and feel things that most people can't. When I was seven, I had a friend that was a tree. I didn't think anything of hearing a tree talk to me (well inside of me). There was also a woman at one of our old houses, an old woman wearing a traditional nightgown, who felt mean and bitter. At night she would stand at the end of my bed, just staring at me. This happened every night we lived there and sometimes I couldn't see her but I could feel her there. I would hide under my blankets, crying, and singing myself to sleep. When I told people of this, no one believed me. I was always really sick at that house, only a couple days at a time before I would catch something else.

Then, only a few weeks before we moved, my mother was on the computer in the other room when she turned and saw the woman just scowling at her. The woman turned around and went into the room where my brother and I were sleeping. Of course, when mom went in there, she wasn't there. A little bit after we moved, they found out that the house had a major carbon-dioxide leak and it burned to the ground.

After that, I didn't see anything for a long time at other houses. But, I felt things. Very strongly. Being young though, they didn't scare me too badly. This went on for years with only the occasional unexplainable noise at night. Instead, my dreams became more and more interesting. Then I started having visions. Seriously. Before long I was predicting deaths, events, even stranger's life events. Now, though, we moved into our current house, things changed.

As soon as we walked into the house with the realtor, I had an odd feeling. There was an old recliner in the living room. The realtor casually pointed out that the chair was the chair that one of the last residents died in. Pleasant, huh? The house was built in the early seventies and two residents came to pass here, John and Loid Mercer. Well, after only a little bit of living here, things REALLY picked up. The visions became extremely frequent and about things as simple as eating breakfast, my ability to guess people's thoughts and what they were getting ready to say or do increased immensely, I felt people's emotions more easily, I began constantly seeing things in the corner of my eye, and I ALWAYS hear noises at night and sometimes in the day now too. Sometimes of a man and woman talking, sometimes footsteps, people moving stuff around in the kitchen. Things like that. Of course, no one is up and about except for me.

I have started having out-of-body-experiences, and astral projecting without knowing it for a long time. When something bad is going to happen nearby me or related to my life, I start having nightmares. My nightmares anymore are horrific and about many different things. I wake up in sweats, sometimes crying, sometimes shaking. I'll hear random voices, breathing, and other noises.

Well, last year I had been sleeping soundly when all of the sudden I was wide awake for no particular reason. But within a few seconds I felt a VERY heavy presence in the room. It felt dark and like whatever it was its eyes were boring down into me. I squeezed my eyes shut and as soon as I did, the bed started to shake and it felt like something was pushing me down. I could hardly breathe and I was so-so afraid. Suddenly it stopped. This has happened three times, but the second time was the worst, and it only happens when its pitch dark in my room so I sleep with a light on most of the time.however, I can turn it off for a day or two, but as soon as I get comfortable thinking nothing will happen, it happens. During the second time, I woke up again; only, the shaking was SO intense it felt like I was going to fall off of the bed. Everything was so much worse, and whatever was there, felt angry. Then suddenly it stopped and I felt something sold, like a human, sit down on my bed and touch my leg. Luckily, I heard my dad awake just then and screamed for him to come in there. It took less than a minute for him to be in there with the light on and no one was there but me.

Another thing I experience is I'll be having a dream, when suddenly, everything fades to white. Then I'll see a person that I've never met before and feel a certain vibe from them, they'll usually smile and/or wave then disappear and my dream will continue. Well, I found out that these people I've seen turned out to have died sometimes around my having a dream about them. I was SO weirded out. I wondered if I was seeing them on their way out to heaven? I'm not sure.

There are other stuff I could talk about, but that's the jiff of it. I am sort of wanting to extend my abilities. I've started learning and practicing the Wicca culture. I prefer to call myself a rootworker. So, I'm not a witch, I just work with the forces of the earth, okay people? Don't get high and mighty. I'm like a rootworker Christian lol. Until I discovered this site, I didn't know what the names of some of these abilities are or how some of this works. So with the thought in mind that I want to learn more about these things, I was hoping you guys could explain some of what's going on with me. I don't know why all of the sudden my abilities took a right turn at Albuquerque. If you have had some similar experiences, share them, please. If there is a way you know to get rid of the 'evil presences' I feel sometimes, let me know. I'm not even sure what I want to know lol. I just need someone who really knows what I'm talking about and can inform me about it. None of my family have these experiences. Please help?