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This is the first time in all my life I have reached out for help from others who may know what is going on. All of my life, my family and I have had weird things happen. Growing up, we lived in an old house that was haunted. We all saw ghosts, but mostly shadow people. All the women in my family for generations have had the ability to know things before they happen. Even small stuff like knowing the phone is about to ring, someone was in trouble, etc. All these things we have dealt with and lived with. The past few years, things seem to be directing to me a lot. I know this story could go on forever, so I am going to write about a few main things. I was living with my parents in the country. It was winter and I woke up and looked out the window, the land was tilled and the soil was black. The neighbor farmed, so I just assumed that was it until I went out later, and there was snow. No land was tilled. Later that week, I was up late with my mom and stood up stretching and looked in the mirror in my sisters room. I could see me in the reflection. Except I was sitting down and not standing up. I swayed side to side but my reflection just sat there staring at me. I was creeped out beyond belief and my mom and I ran to her room. I went back half an hour later and peered into the mirror. I was still sitting on the couch. Frantic, I ran back into my mom's room. Well the next time I checked, the image was gone. Flash forward a few years later, I gave birth to my son and my husband worked 3rd shifts. Every night when he would leave, I would get scared. I knew there was a man in there watching me and waiting. This is when the dreams started. I would have nightmares about all sorts of things and would wake up screaming. I never saw him, but I KNEW it was a man and he scared the living hell out of me. I would hear him call my name, and he only made himself known at night when my husband left. One afternoon (on a bright sunny day), I saw a white orb zip through my apt for about 1 minute until it vanished before my eyes. It radiated amazing light and was not very big. Flash forward another year, my son was about 1 and half years old and we lived in a new apartment. My husband was in the living room and my son was in our bedroom. All of a sudden my husband heard a loud crash and went running to the bedroom. I guess my son had climbed up the dresser and it fell on him with a huge old tv. Somehow the drawers ended up out of it away from my son. It felt on and the top of the dresser landed on my bed. My son was pinned beneath but just enough room was there he was uninjured. The tv was so heavy it put two holes in the wall. I could not believe that he had been saved and unharmed. That night, I had the weirdest dream ever. I was with a girl who drove me (one that I have remembered from other dreams and she is always taking me somewhere). She drove me to this place where all these people were. I remember saying, wow they have changed a lot since the last time I was here. I then stood in line and was given some sort of ID card and it said Blue Man. I was then escorted outside to a Native American man who was laying the grass staring at the sky. He quickly got up and said to me, I do not want you to be afraid of what I am about to tell you. I want you to know that your son is being protected by angels. He then showed me an image (it wasn't a picture more like an image that appeared in the air?) and it was sepia tone. It wasn't colored but looked like an old photograph in a way. There were two bright lights in the sky (almost like the North Star on each side). There were two extremely tall figures on each side facing towards the lights (as I saw the back of their heads). In between them were two normal figures, and in the middle of the 4, was a little tiny figure. I leaned in and looked closely and it was my son turned towards the right. The two figures closest to him were holding his hands. Anyways, I woke up at like 2am and ran into my living room and drew a picture of it. It was crazy but I did feel like my son would be okay. Flash forward until now. I see the shadow people and they like to be in my kitchen (right off from my living room) on the ceiling. I see them roll in like a fog and disappear. My son sees things too and calls them Mongas (his word for monsters). He says they are in the closet. I was in the bathroom last week and he has never acted scared of them before. He came running in and his body was trembling (he is 2 and half). He said monga out there. I said where, and he said living room. Well I went down to the hall, and all of a sudden I heard his electronic truck skidding tires. I thought he had the remote and I looked around and said do you have the remote. He said no mommy monga. All of a sudden it stopped. Then my son goes its ok mommy just the car. Well my brother stayed 2 nights ago, the truck went across the floor at 2 am. He told it to stopped and it just went faster. Well last night, my mom called me at 4am. She told me she had to go to the hospital because she was on the porch at like midnight and somehow a moth flew into ear. Disgusting and freaky normally lol, the story got weirder. After the ER finally got it removed, they put it in cup of water and left my mom in room to wait for the dr. She said the moth began to scream and make almost talking noises as it was dying. Well after she got home, my mom and sister were talking about my late grandmother when the dog started acting weird. All of a sudden their dog ran to the couch and sniffed the corner where the cushion was. She then proceeded to pull out a dead bat. She has no chimneys, the dogs are always on leashes as they live in town when out side. Someone is always up at their house as they have different work schedules. How did a bat get in there? We have ties to Native Americans (as my mom is big on genealogy sp?). We also have ties to Pt. Pleasant. Sorry this is going on so long, but I think that things seem to be getting more persistent and prevalent. There is someone who follows me all day and all night. They come to my work and I sense they are always behind me and not beside or in front. I think it is a man and I believe he causes tension and bad energy between me and my husband. I need help from someone before these things ruin my life. I don't know who they are or what they want. Sometimes I get messages as I am laying in bed. It is kind of the state between awake and asleep. I got a message from late aunt who told me to tell my cousin she read her letters. I didn't want to call my cousin (who is my age) and tell her because I knew she was still an emotional wreck from her mother's death. My mom made me call her, and my cousin are you kidding me? Don't think I'm weird but I write her letters all the time. I'm like you weird? Hahah I am the one telling you about a message from beyond. I have also got names like Cherie in my dreams, 2 boys who were lost from their parents and a woman had them. Someone please help me. I just do not understand what I am or why they come to me. I am not trained for any of this. Please someone. I would like to see if someone who lives in Ohio or maybe has experience with Native Americans.

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IslVoter (257 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-17)
Bld0702--

Let us know if you figure anything out.

Gotta get in my characters with nothing...blah, blah.

Lora
bld0702 (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-17)
Lol. I am a pretty paranoid person. Haha. I am pretty tough but mentally I am always on edge. Good thing about the cats haha. I have never owned one in my adult life and don't plan on it. But, that being said, I can mark that one off my list haha. I am about to check my email, as I saw Lynn emailed me while at work, but was too busy to read. Thanks for all of your help once again and making me feel better! 😆
IslVoter (257 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-17)
Bld--

I have to laugh about your reaction to cats. They are just reacting to you reacting to them!

Cats,dogs and many other animals, I believe, don't just act on "instinct"--I feel they see our energy (auras) as well, so they can sense an angry person coming at them --or a fearful one. So they keep watching you to see what is up with you.

And, it must be said, they're usually pretty damned independent, and so if they can manage it, they'll stay in the street even if a dog comes up --and not budge because they don't want to look weak. But, of course, sometimes it's wise to get the heck out of there.

It does sound like fear is driving you a lot of the time, and that is the biggest hurdle not only to spiritual growth, but to life. You project your fear out and you'll get exactly what you project.

So, think of what you want: Calm when walking--past anyone or anything. Peace, serenity, power. Whatever it is you'd like to feel instead of what you're going through--it's not a bad idea to start now to change those fear patterns.

Isle - Lora
bld0702 (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-17)
Oh and something else that I have failed to mention in all the other posts, the cats. Lol. I have never liked cats my whole life and am creeped out by them. Honest to God, I feel like they are intentionally watching me and hanging around me. Wherever I go, they are there. Crossing my path, or just sitting there waiting as I walk by. I am not sure if this is just an earthbound phobia or if it means anything. This morning, I walked to work (it was dark). On the sidewalk of my normal path, a cat just sat there. (The sidewalk is off a major road with lots of traffic). As semis and cars drove by, the cat just sat in the same spot, staring at me walking. I went across the street lol, to avoid it. I swear for about 50 feet this cat was turned around watching my every move. Who knows... Maybe I am just starting to get paranoid?!?
bld0702 (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-17)
PATHR, thanks for your response. Do you feel as if this is NA spirits trying to tell my family something or do they just want us to reconnect with the old ways?
bld0702 (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-17)
Just wanted to let you know that I am still waiting for her response. I will let you guys know if anything new is discovered.
PathR (4 stories) (1245 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-17)
bld0702 I agree with Edmund, about getting NA & Minister. And inpart you will have to learn about
The workings and these two different groups can help
You achieve that goal.

Cattydee mentioned about looking up the moth
And bath is an excellent idea.

I will tell you why I agree with both.
Normally when we are of NA roots, it is as Edmund
Mentioned as each generation continues to connect the connection increases.
Cattydee is right-because with each tribe there is a symbolic language that continues. If you think about
It these family ancestors are speaking to us with
A Traditional tongue and that has even changed.
So the next best thing is to use Symbols.

The lady Is/Voter recommended is most probably
Able to connect spiritual to look at your energy.
And move spirits (spirit release).
But it will never fill the void that is so despirately
Needed by you and your family.

As a mother I had to explain to my eldest that see
The spider-whom connect to time as a weaver. Was a
Normal event and something I experienced.
See a spider, being show someone would die.

For she thought she was crazy.
Experiencing feeling cobwebs on her face, and see a spider. Which showed her the situation she felt
Trapped in. She too was afraid, until I explained!
I have on a few occassions encouraged her to practice
Some of the old ways. But she is not open.
If she did she would be filled with peace and joy.
Something that another path will never give her.

There is something to the NA ways, and much has been lost. It is not unusal for our ancestors to come to us
In times: of stress/fear or problems which is part of
The situations you and your family have come across.

I encourage you and your family to practice the old traditions.
Ancestors lead, guide and help, and teach us even
Though they have left this early plane.
They can help you move the troubled soul (of the shadow person), on past the milkyway, into the spirit world.

I can't tell you enough how difficult it is to walk
A path of spirit, and try to embrace the metaphysical.
Only to hear a man say that a NA Navajo sucking Doctor
Is wrong. Somethings will never mix.
If you get help, from the new age/metaphysical, I
Encourage your to submerge in the NA and the Pt
Had recommened.

Blessings
bld0702 (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
Thanks so much for all of your help. I am waiting on her response. I sure hope she will be able to give me some guidance. I really appreciate all your help. For asking for help the first time, this site has made me feel a lot better about what is going on. Thanks for being so helpful to a newbie ❤
IslVoter (257 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
Bld0702--

P.S. It does sound like the experience you had was a lucid dream or outright OBE. (The distinctions are sort of arbitrary.) Time in them is... Distorted at the very least, depending on where you go vibrationally, so it's not surprising you knew the time and no time seemed to have passed. The astral version of a place is often different from the "real" place--in subtle ways.

It just sounds like you are developing in a lot of ways. If you read on SF all the types of experiences, it begins to not sound so outrageous. Sometimes I forget that others "outside" --haven't really been exposed to these possibilities and do think they are outrageous ideas. It is wise to be careful with whom you confide at first. But this is a safe place.

Lora
IslVoter (257 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
Bld0702--

I did let Lynn know I had sent you. I'm called IsleWalker on that site. She does lots of retrieval work (crossing over earth-bound) and can tell you if what you have is negative or not, I think.

I reread your dream. I understand. It could be that this guide is Native American. My "master guide" --appears to be NA. I also had no knowledge of traditions, etc. So I've had to look up everything. I get lots of animal and bird signs, and other things. I had a wonderful memory of being with him walking through trees with light streaming through. In 3rd grade my teacher read to us A Light in the Forest and I was mesmerized--by the picture, the story and my memory. But I do consider that that was just one life with him and that I've had many. I'm just suggesting that he could have been NA but all the other things happening to you may not be related to that.

I remember the same thing with the TV on top of a dresser happening to my daughter when she was 3 or so. She tried climbing up the drawers to get to the old-style TV. She was OK too but I took the TV off after that!

I gave Lynn a link to your story but I'm not sure she's read it. I do think she might be able to give you perspective on what's going on with you. She said she'd be glad to help.

Lora
bld0702 (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
Islvoter- I guess really the only reason I can give is the dream that I had, and just some knowing that this has something to do with NA. I really do not know, as I am not into geneology or NA culture really in anyway. I guess just my dreams in particular. I really am not sure now that you ask me. Lol. I have also had a few lucid dreams in my life. One last summer. In my dream, I was staying at my mom's house (which I was in reality) and I woke up and came out of the bedroom. I remember looking at the clock and it said 5:35am. I went to my mom's room to wake her (bc I had a dream in my dream about something I can't remember) and she was mumbling on in her sleep about being pregnant and her mother (her mom died of cancer when she was pregnant with my sister). I tried to wake her and all of a sudden, I felt this enormous pressure around my body. I felt like I was drunk. I was stumbling to get back to my room as if there was some crazy strong magnetic field affecting my body. I finally made it back and then I woke up. I was freaked out by the dream, and went out to the living room to find my mom still awake. She asked what was wrong and I began to tell her about my dream and I was like it was 5:35 am on the clock (in my dream) when I looked at the real clock... It was 5:35am. There were not any clocks in my room and my cell was dead (as I had forgotten the charger at my house). I don't know how I could have dreamed the real time in my sleep. I am not really sure if this is a lucid dream, but from what I read online it sounded like one? Again, nothing to do with NA lol but I just have so much constantly going on in awake time and in sleep, I feel like I am going crazy. I mean I have had weird shadow figures and stuff and the ghost I saw before since I was young. Just the past few years, things have just progressed more to weird dreams, messages in my between awake and sleep state, and feelings of someone around all the time. I am not sure if it is possible to figure this out. Things are just happening more frequently and becoming more drastic as I get older. I will def go to that forum, and try to locate Lynn. Maybe someone is just trying to tell me something.
the_k (38 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
If you believe the spirit that follows you to be a dark Spirit or Malevolent spirit, perhaps contact a local Native American Tribal Counsel. I'm not sure what Tribal Counsel would be the one for you as I do not know what Tribe your family originates from.
IslVoter (257 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
bld0702--

Yes, I think you should follow up on both subjects: The Native American link and who the spirit is that follows you.

But you can't do it with the fear you hold now. In life and especially in anything spiritual, fear gets in the way. It creates it's own realities of fear, so if you fear, to some extent you will see what you expect to see. (Just as Law of Attraction brings you what you put your attention on.) It is especially obvious in astral projection/out of body experiences. Fear holds you back and those who believe in hell or satan or have fear of dogs or snakes--see them. In other not-so-dense dimensions, thought creates reality.

You need to feel empowered, that the light that you are protects you. You can visualize a sphere of light around you--of any color that feels protective to you. You can do grounding before doing your saging or the contacting of any spirits. The simplest is visualizing the energetic roots of a tree spreading and going down and down. You visualize your own energy being grounded into these roots.

You might contact others that I know on other forums. On spiritualforums.com there is a lady named Lynn. She is very giving and might be able to help you, although she will first want to scope out who you are. You will need to join in order to contact her. She has a strange "accent" in her posts that sounds old English, but you'll get the hang of her eventually.

If you can contact others in tribes surrounding yours, they may not be as surprised by your questions as you think (although it might be a kind of weird first few sentences!). But I don't really understand why you've put so much credence into the Native American connection--other than your mother having part NA heritage. I mean there are tons of Americans who have NA ancestors somewhere. But what ties them to any of what is going on--the bats, the man, the shadow people, the moth? I don't associate any of these especially with NA. Could be but it wouldn't have been my first direction.

Have you researched the history of your house and land? You might find something on Internet but probably will need to go to local library.

It sounds like a lot of work but you need more details to put you on the proper trail.

Hope this gives you a few ideas.

Isle - Lora
bld0702 (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
Thank you all for your quick responses. I really appreciate it. I will try and answer everything, as I would love more input. First I want to say that last night my mom and brother were on their porch, and my brother (who is a grown man) became terrified screaming for my mother to get inside. Running inside, he told my mom that what he thought was a bat (I know not again) swoop down in front of his face and actually attach itself to the porch ceiling (metal roof). He looked at it and was freaked out to realize it didn't look like a bat. It really didn't have a head, but it had eyes, it was flat and black. If you know what a stealth fighter jet looks like, imagine that shape. I am not sure, but these bats have to mean something. ISLVOTER>> very strange that you happen to mention indian burial grounds. My mom was researching Hardin County, Ohio (which is where we are living) and supposedly this whole freaking county is full of burial grounds. There were excavations done in the 70s and 80s and stuff was taken to the Smithsonian. I have never heard about this, neither had my mom (she was born here). I am beginning to wonder, but the few articles she found were far and few. There are actually not that many Native Americans in this county, and I know there are some tribes in surrounding counties. I am thinking of going to speak with some of them and trying to get some guidance but I don't want them to think I am crazy lol. When I had that dream about my son, my mom talked with someone on FB in a tribe and he spoke to an older lady. She basically said the same thing about him growing up to do somehting important in the world and that he was an old soul (due to the sepia nature of the dream). I have never thought if my follower is a protector. I honestly am scared to talk to them or channel any spirits as I am scared they will be evil. I feel that it would be possible for me to do so, but that I am not experienced at all in that area. I really wish I just knew someone who could meet me and my family and tell me what is going on. I feel like there is a message that we are missing. I did read that moths and bats are nocturnal creatures sensitive to emotions and the such. A few sites said they were messengers from the dead. Sorry this is so long. I have not attempted any sage cleanses or anything. 2 summers ago, my little sister went to some Native American day camp, this older lady approached her and randomly asked if she was Cherokee. (It was a Mingo Tribe Day Camp). She said was part and the lady told her she needed to have her house cleansed and to burn sage. Do you think I should try and asking my man follower questions? I appreciate all the advice, and if you think of anything else, please let me know!
Cattydee (12 stories) (161 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
Okay so my family has had problems with ghosts on and off through the years but I seem to be the only one effected by it daily. That said I sort of know how you feel sort of dont.

Okay I also feel there is a person behind me sometimes and Everytime I look I see no one there. I have tried talking to it but I never hear any responses. It feels like a really bad energy and an extremely creepy feeling and so I have a suspicion it's either a demon or a very bad, angry spirit. Don't try and mess with the monsters, spirits, demons, ghosts, or anything. Have someone such as a witch/wiccan put a protection spell on your house and see if that helps any.

The moth and bat? Well I think those are some kind of sign. Do some research about dead animals showing up in your house or ghosts messing with animals or something. It could give you some answers as to what kind of signs they are and what you should do about it.

Now to what someone else said abouT your son being the only one protected. He is protected because he is probably an important person and he will do something that will impact the world and he needs to live to do that. That's most likely why he has four guardians. Everyone has a guardian angel and everyone is protected by them at one point or another, whether you see them or not. Also I believe you and your family might be connected to the spirit world through psychic ability or otherwise. Okay sorry this is such a long comment but yeah.
IslVoter (257 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
bld0702--

The thing that strikes me is that, with all your connections-over the years and through your family--I find it hard to believe that spirit has arranged protection for your son--in spades if he has four protectors--and not you.

To me, either you do have protections already or you are being left on your own to develop your spiritual gifts. Is is possible at all that the "man" behind you is not bad energy? Have you asked (in your head) "Who are you? What do you want?" Maybe an obvious question, but you didn't say you had.

Have you attempted any cleansing rituals like saging the house to get rid of the shadow people on the ceiling?

And, is the house you are in the family home for generations? You seem tied to the Native American thing. Is there a story that your house was on a Native American burial ground? Are there those in your community who are Native American and know the lore?

[This is just an aside about Native Americans. I don't understand, spiritually, the protection of burial grounds. It would seem to keep one earth-bound after you die, tending the ground. After we are dead, is it healthy, spiritually, to worry about where our old body was? This has always mystified me as it seems very un-spiritual to my way of thinking. ]

Just throwing out some ideas that occur to me.

Let us know what you decide.

Isle - Lora
Edmund (578 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
bld0702... Thats a complicated story... I feel your family ties to Native Americans and the immigrants that lived near or around Pt. Pleasant is the underlying cause. Then having a family history of gifted women brings that connection forward generation to generation. The dream you had about your son is a great sign I feel that he would be able to stop it or deal effectivly with the hauntings or harrassment. Its what to do now to curb the extra paranormal activities. I sort of feel like it would take both a Native American medicine man type and a minister working in conjuction to settle everything down.
bld0702 (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-16)
do you think the moth and bat are some sort of signs or just a freaky coincidence?
Rosetta (1 stories) (52 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-15)
I have no experience with Native Americans whatsoever (at least compared to your experience) but I can say that they could be your spiritual guardians and messagers. Your little boy may have to do something very important when he's much older so he's being protected and also has been given a keen awarness of his surroundings so he can run from danger before it becomes impossible to do so. With the evil man, he's probably an malevolent spirit who used to reside in your home when he was alive. My advice:get an exorcist or two. The monsters are weak poltergeist who in the end have no true power over you in any way because they just want to confuse and scare you (its pretty much their job). Have a experienced medium put a protection seal on your home if you can. This isn't much, but I hope that it will be some help to you.

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