Questioning My Sanity

Over many years there have been a occasions when I have questioned my sanity the first memory of this is being on the moors at the age of approx 10 with my cousin and feeling an overwhelming sense of danger/dread at which I grabbed my cousin and ran to find our parents who were having a picnic 10 minutes away. Four years ago my cousin and her sister disclosed to me that they had been abused by a member of their family and that it had happened on this very same part of the moors on many occasions.

Since then I had many little occurrences, I've heard my name called in my empty home, had items moved from one spot to another while out, taps came on, on there own and I know there have been more but I have have tried to push them to oneside for along time.

Five years ago things started to get a little more serious I lost my grandfather (who was my bestfriend) to cancer he was a very popular and well loved man and I wanted to say goodbye but I could never get a moment alone with him. When he had passed away I decided I would say my goodbyes at the funeral home, but again my sister called on the very same day and asked to come with me as she was scared to go alone, once there my sister immediately became distressed and needed to leave the room and I was torn, my sister needed me so I left without saying goodbye again.

A few days later on the night before the funeral I dreamt I was in a corridor with a white marble floor, at the end of the corridor were two steps down and then a left turn, as I noticed the turn, my grandad stepped out of it and I flung myself at his knees hugging him sobbing "i never got chance to tell you I love you " he replied "i already knew " I woke then and was already sobbing. I have cried everytime I have told this to anyone and I am now, I know it probably sounds stupid but I still don't think it was a dream, I just don't know how else to describe it.

Now for the last year, in january we received the keys to our new property it needed a lot of work so we arranged to stay at my mother in laws for a month and do the work when the children were in bed. On the few occasions that I was in the house on my own I heard a young girl singing in the back garden (it was 10:30 at night and the neighbours don't have children) and the letter box would clatter like someone was messing with it (I checked on numerous occasions but nobody was there and I could not see any reason for it to make these noises without someone messing with it).

Last month I woke up and was pinned to my bed by something I couldn't see? Then a few days later I was playing on a computer game in the evening with my nine year old son, he has ADHD and one of his ticks is making silly noises, id asked him to please stop on three occasions he blew one more raspberry after this, but then something imitated him he jumped on my knee and said "mum I promise I did not do thet one " which I knew, we were alone?

Two week ago at work I was preparing a room for one of the ladies I support to have her aromatherapy massage, the aromatherapist passed me her cds and every one that I put in jumped, I turned to tell the aromatherapist and a totally involuntary noise came out of my mouth, the first thing I thought was she is going to think I'm possessed! I tried to pretend nothing had happened... An hour later the aromatherapist who is very spiritual came to me and said " when things first began happening to my I thought people would think I was evil, its just because I didn't understand"! So as you can see the in last month things have began happening with people around me and I don't think I can ignore this anymore, but have no idea what I need to do any advice would be great thanks.