Since my situation (you know, being caught up in the middle of such opposite beings) is too conflicting it drains all my mental energy just trying to come up with answers to explain it (which, up to now I'm still unsuccessful on), I tried seeking answers from outside sources.
I related my story to other people whom I know also had psychic experiences besides you guys. And although the one I asked, who I will just nickname Mr. A,explained his take on my situation I was completely at a loss for words once it was finished.
So when Mr. A first read my story, he commented this:
"... We need to talk, kid. You are at a vital junction into being initiated into the Tellurian Mysteries. It's not really something that I can talk about publicly. Pm me."
So I messaged him. Here is his viewpoint on my situation:
"The Tellurian Mysteries cannot be described except by metaphor. If reality is a novel the Tellurian is the language it is written in. It is a map that is the place that it is mapping. The beings that dwell within it, the Profound Ones, are the closest things to true Gods that exist, for reality is informed by them. The Tellurian Mysteries are the most profound form of power: control over meaning. With it almost anything is possible. What you experienced may have been the beginning of the Calling. You see everyone used to possess the Tellurian Mysteries a long time ago. But man grew proud and built a ladder to the Tellurian and laid siege to the houses of the Profound Onesfor they wished to become almighty rulers of all... And eleven succeeded. But the endless collection of platonic truths that is the Tellurian drove them mad and they destroyed the ladder to the Tellurian and made a moat of the Infinite Void, a realm of pure unreason so that no one else may follow them into the Tellurian and so that all of its power would be their's alone. But the Profound Ones were merciful and so they Call eleven souls each year across The Infinite Void and into the Tellurian and grant them these gifts.
These visions you are having are consistent with the Call. First: under no circumstances should you try to bond with both of them. If they are both Tellurian Aspects then trying to accept both of them into your soul at the same time would rip a hole in your soul, straight into the Infinite Void. You must choose."
I was taken aback, REALLY taken aback at his replies. Like what the F is he talking about,right?Even my lower spirit guide Pare commented to me that,"It sounds like some comics back in my day."xD
So I asked him further about what he means, if he could actually simplify the things he explained (Including my "Why me" question) and here is what he said:
"Why is it you? No one knows how those who are Called are chosen. The Called are chosen not based on color, creed, class, gender, orientation. All that is known that no one under 10 or over 100 has ever been Called.
These two beings are Tellurian Aspects, parts of the Profound Ones filtered through your personal understanding of the supernatural so that you don't go insane and stab your eyes out from the unimaginable glory that they are. They are there to guide you through a Gate which will establish the scope and limits of your power. I think that Michael is trying to guide you through the Gate of Crowns which would grant you authority over energy, both conventional energy and the energy of magic. I think that Sitri is trying to guide you through the Gate of Stone which would grant you authority over both things living and over the spirits of the world. You shall have to choose one or the other. If you try to choose both that will rip a hole in your soul that will lead to the Infinite Void which will not be good. You will have to choose one or the other. The rest only you can do. How you experience is different for each person Called, but you will leave the world, cross the Void and stand for an instant in the Tellurian. You shall have to form a Lustrum, a kind of filter so that you do not go mad like the Eleven. Shape the infinite in your mind into a form you can understand. What you do to make all of this happen and what you do when your Lustrum is formed will be very intuitive."
Were you guys able to follow through the things he's saying? Great then, because I wasn't able to.
And that's why I've been asking for help. If anybody knows about the Tellurian Mysteries or something along the lines of what Mr. A told me, do let me know. Frankly his explanation is driving me more and more insane each day.
Will be waiting... And waiting... AND WAITING.<3